- Jan 20, 2020
I’m 20. I’ve been struggling with bulimia for a couple years but recently it’s got really bad and I purge really often. Sometimes I purge even when I don’t binge. Sometimes I purge even when I have a healthy nutritious meal of a regular size. My boyfriend loses his patience with me sometimes and calls me ‘crazy’. Naturally I get really triggered because he says it with a lot of spite and disdain. Makes me feel unlovable. Not like I have self esteem to begin with, but these comments just make it worse. I feel like when someone finds out about my ED, I will stop existing as a separate entity to them and all they’ll see is my ED. But there’s so much more to me. I guess I’m just afraid that this eating disorder is a deal breaker and no one will even give me a chance, and even if they do, they’ll lose their patience with me like my current boyfriend. Are there really people out there who would be okay with dating people with problems like these?