I feel like it is now or never..

[Vegay]

Hey. I haven't posted in a while. Things have been difficult lately. Well, always really. I really do feel like it is now or never. Although, I have probably felt that for a long time too. I said to my counsellor yesterday, 'I can't remember a time where I ever felt natural.' By this I mean, that I always wake up feeling like I am battling something or like I am putting on a front.
Whilst I am here, I also want to ask if any of you diagnosed with BPD have ever experienced some kind of, obsession with a person? Obviously we are not just BPD and I tend not to use BPD, depression, anxiety as an excuse for anything. However, having said this, sometimes I genuinely feel like I am physically and mentally not able to stop myself. I now have other concerns. This probably isn't making much sense. I just feel like I have tried and tried and yet I am still broken. I feel like something happened and things were just destined to never be the same again and now it is too late to ever be okay or have I wanted in life so what is the point

 

[Fairy Lucretia]

just dropping by with massive hugs xxx

 

[AAAAA]

I haven’t had a really close friend for a long time bc I become too obsessed. It’s gotten better as I’ve gotten older and I can now have friends but not a super close one. I’m too wary of my obsessiveness taking over and I never want to live that way again. it’s exhausting.

 

[Chance87]

I can relate to so much of that! I do get obsessed with people, I compare it to an addiction. It doesn't happen super often, but when it does it's strong.

 

[Mouseling]

I'll chime in too and say yeah, I can get obsessed with people too. It doesn't happen often here either, I keep most people at a good distance, but when it does, it's all-consuming. You're not alone