I feel like im stuck

[lifecangetbetter]

I'm stuck on how negative I am. I feel like all I ever do is sigh. My sighs mean I hate myself or I hate my life. I'm so unhappy with the way my life turned out, the way I process information and just everything. I'm tired of being crazy. I'm tired of being unhappy. It's my lunch break and I'm just here wishing I could die somehow. I feel like nothing changes and I don't have any positivity in my life

 

[lifecangetbetter]

Life is one depressing nightmare

 

[toucan]

Yeah I feel that. Did you want advice or commiseration*? I can do both.

*I use that word to mean "mutually complain until you both feel better," but now I'm worried that's not what it means...

 

[MeAndMyDepression]

I'm stuck on how negative I am. I feel like all I ever do is sigh. My sighs mean I hate myself or I hate my life. I'm so unhappy with the way my life turned out, the way I process information and just everything. I'm tired of being crazy. I'm tired of being unhappy. It's my lunch break and I'm just here wishing I could die somehow. I feel like nothing changes and I don't have any positivity in my life

You say:

"I'm so unhappy with the way my life turned out."

How old are you? It might sound like a cliché, but it is possible for life to get better. I know that is an overly simplistic statement, but don't count yourself out.

 

[lifecangetbetter]

To toucan: both
I'm 30, just starting by career. Very sad with how it turned out

 

[MeAndMyDepression]

You need to separate how you feel about your job from how you feel about yourself.

 

[lifecangetbetter]

but i miss school. i used to be able to study and get As and i tied my self worth with that. now im at work and they are critical of me. im in a new location all the time which is really frustrating for me with my condition and i just feel like i never change

 

[MeAndMyDepression]

Same advice as before: you need to separate how you feel about your job from how you feel about yourself--your self-worth.

 

[MeAndMyDepression]

How is your work critical of you?
What do you mean when you say, "I just feel like I never change?"

 

[lifecangetbetter]

Work is all I have though. Work and parents it's hard to separate the two.
It is retail they base how "good" I am by how fast I am. Schizophrenia itself causes people to be slow. On top of that I've been on xanax for about 5 years (am currently tapering) and just started xanax which causes you to be slow. So I am considered "not good"

 

[lifecangetbetter]

I feel I never change as in I'm still the same person. I can't change my hardwiring. I'm sensitive, like very sensitive to the point where my feelings get hurt when someone says something offensive to someone else. My feelings get hurt for them

 

[MeAndMyDepression]

Yeah I feel that. Did you want advice or commiseration*? I can do both.

*I use that word to mean "mutually complain until you both feel better," but now I'm worried that's not what it means...

I like your unique definition of commiseration. Why do you worry that's not what it means?

 

[Alexander Ypsilantis]

Yeah I feel that. Did you want advice or commiseration*? I can do both.

*I use that word to mean "mutually complain until you both feel better," but now I'm worried that's not what it means...

That's actually a pretty funny comment.

Well played.