i feel like i am in a steady decline.....nerves

[thing fish]

i hate feeling this way. i feel like i am at my wits end.
i don't feel stable at all. i kinda feel like i am on a ledge and i am teetering on the edge. like i'm gonna crack.

i have the whole weekend off and nothing to do except sit here alone, bored and broke with my scattering thoughts.

nothing seems to help...
what do i do?

 

[thing fish]

sitting here alone....nothing to keep me occupied but my thoughts and they are not pure thoughts at the moment.
i feel like i could lose it at any moment...

will i do something i will regret? either to myself or someone else?
i can't be sure....

i hate this...
i really hate it

 

[jax]

Please try and stay safe. Is there a friend you can ring - or can you go out for a coffee and hang out someplace? Stay safe.
Jacqui x

 

[thing fish]

Please try and stay safe. Is there a friend you can ring - or can you go out for a coffee and hang out someplace? Stay safe.
Jacqui x

hey there jax...i feel a little better than i did earlier. i talked to my son for a while and my one and only friend is coming over at 9 and she is going to watch the fights with me.

thanks for replying to my thread.

ttyl