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I feel like a joke

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BornGone

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Do you someties get the feeling that your whole existence is just a joke or big fucking mistake?

I got no good traits or any qualities. I am ugly, anxious, weak, not fun to be around,sadly not smart enough to get anywhere in life but at the same time not stupid enough to be happy .

There is nothing about me, that would make me appear likeable in any form.

I am just there to be a stepping stone for others. Thats probably the only way I deserve to be treated.
My life has just been shit for fucking 21 years and I dont believe there will be anything better for me in the future too.
 
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I always would think like that before but it was just because my mom would often tell me I was a big mistake when I got bad grades. So it was something that haunted me more and I totally believed it.

Negative thoughts take over really easily, myself have a hard time seeing anything positive traits in myself. But the people around me can often see the better side of me than what I can do. I also think I’m ugly, I totally hate my appearance and could keep on nitpicking on many things with myself. But that’s just my low self-worth and self-esteem talking.

No one deserve to be a stepping stone for another person. For me my turning point was when I got my bunnies, which have made me want to change more and try to stand on my own legs.

Myself have no idea what my future will be, I just go with goals and I can only guess how a year in the future will be. I never think that far a head with my life, otherwise my negative thoughts would kick in.

You are still young and can make a change, or at least try to change. Even though when we are in early twenties can feel like it’s not a lot of time. At least that is what I feel sometimes 😅
 
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BornGone

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I always would think like that before but it was just because my mom would often tell me I was a big mistake when I got bad grades. So it was something that haunted me more and I totally believed it.

Negative thoughts take over really easily, myself have a hard time seeing anything positive traits in myself. But the people around me can often see the better side of me than what I can do. I also think I’m ugly, I totally hate my appearance and could keep on nitpicking on many things with myself. But that’s just my low self-worth and self-esteem talking.

No one deserve to be a stepping stone for another person. For me my turning point was when I got my bunnies, which have made me want to change more and try to stand on my own legs.

Myself have no idea what my future will be, I just go with goals and I can only guess how a year in the future will be. I never think that far a head with my life, otherwise my negative thoughts would kick in.

You are still young and can make a change, or at least try to change. Even though when we are in early twenties can feel like it’s not a lot of time. At least that is what I feel sometimes 😅
I can't dismiss my negative thoughts. They are always present or triggered when hearing a bad remark about myself. just a wierd look from another person is enough.
Maybe the few hours of sleep and long train rides shook me up a bit more than usual so probably not the best day for me to write in this forum.
Still thanks for the answer😃
 
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