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Cooke93

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Hi everyone, i'm new here and don't really know how to word these things very well, so please excuse any mistakes or how badly it's written please.

My name is Daniel and i've been struggling with.. well, life basically and I don't know how to handle this crushing feeling of being helpless and alone.
I've been diagnosed with Depression since i was 15 (it was the one and only time i visited a doctor and therapist until recently) I struggle with dealing with mental pain and have self harmed since 13 years old to try block out the mental pain and focus on the physical pain.
Recently I've lost my job, I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years, lost friendships that have lasted over 10 years and keep falling out with my family. It all just feels hopeless and i keep getting this constant crushing fear of being alone.
Last year i tried overdosing to end all of this but to no avail, and just 2 days ago i tried to end my life again, but luckily my brother stopped me.
I don't know what to do, i'm honestly struggling with everything.
I'm relying on drink and drugs which i know never helps, but i just feel like i need an escape from reality.

Again, i'm sorry if this is badly written, has any mistake or is just a general mess, but i was never really good with stuff like this, especially talking about how i feel. I didn't exactly fit into school well and never really tried to either, so, i honestly apologise if it sucks to read or anything. Thank you for giving me some of your time in advance though.
 
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Cooke93, Have you considered therapy as a healthly outlet?
 
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Cooke93

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I reached out to a Therapist 2 weeks ago and have another appointment on the 6th of june. Hopefully it helps.
 
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Hi @Cooke93

:welcome:

don't worry about bad writing, but you probably need to change your avatar as is an anonymous forum.
 
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Thanks for the heads up! My bad, i didn't really read the rules because i really needed to get it off my chest. I'll read over them now though!
 
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Thanks for the heads up! My bad, i didn't really read the rules because i really needed to get it off my chest. I'll read over them now though!
Let's face it, no one reads rules :LOL:

I wouldn't go into rules too much. It's mainly don't be an ass.

(and don't identify yourself or others)

You'll have to think up an avatar that represents you :) Mine is simply a monopoly spin on my name (which was actually the brand of cigs I was smoking when I joined 9 years ago, rather than me living in the poshest place in London! :LOL: )

Have a look around, and join in.

Good to get things off chest and lots do in new posts.

:)
 
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Cooke93

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That it very true haha. However, i've put my name and age and don't think i can edit the post!
Let's face it, no one reads rules :LOL:

I wouldn't go into rules too much. It's mainly don't be an ass.

(and don't identify yourself or others)

You'll have to think up an avatar that represents you :) Mine is simply a monopoly spin on my name (which was actually the brand of cigs I was smoking when I joined 9 years ago, rather than me living in the poshest place in London! :LOL: )

Have a look around, and join in.

Good to get things off chest and lots do in new posts.

:)
Haha this is very true! However i believe i said too much about myself since this is an anonymous forum! Feel like i have to start all over! However i'll take your advice on having a look around and joining in :)
 
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That it very true haha. However, i've put my name and age and don't think i can edit the post!

Haha this is very true! However i believe i said too much about myself since this is an anonymous forum! Feel like i have to start all over! However i'll take your advice on having a look around and joining in :)
Name and age is nowt. Don't worry.

:)

The chill out section is popular for night-owls (uk-ers time) and sometimes good if insomnia I find. Just try and not think of complex things! :LOL:

anyway, I'm off, :)
 
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Cooke have your doctors ever suggested you may have borderline personality disorder? You seem to have all the markers.
 
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Cooke93

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Cooke have your doctors ever suggested you may have borderline personality disorder? You seem to have all the markers.
To be perfectly honest with you, i haven't had a doctor or anything in years, i've only just recently started seeing one again.. do you think i should ask them? Or is there another way to go about it?
 
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