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Hello, I'm going to try to explain as best I can, and keep it fairly short.
I'm a sixteen year old girl. When I was twelve, I lived with my uncle. My grandfather also lived at the same house with us. I hardly knew him. He was in his early eighties, and a sweet old man at first. On his birthday, my mom and dad urged me to give him a pair of socks and warm pants. He lived in the basement, and they wanted me to give the gifts to him alone to surprise him. I went downstairs and sat by him on the couch. I handed him his gifts and smiled, etc. I was very nice, and I didn't lead him on in any way; he was my grandpa!! Then, what happened still bothers me to this day. He pulled me very close and.. well, made-out with me. I was quite scared, afraid of what'd happen next, so I squirmed and eventually pulled away, and ran up the stairs. I knew that it obviously wasn't proper "grandfatherly" behavior. For the next several weeks I dealt with him bothering me. He'd often stand near me, where my uncle and parents couldn't see him, and play with his penis, licking his lips, watching me. He always watched me. He stood near the stairs, where he could see me in the living room, and I could see him. His eyes were so filled with lust and hate, and just... I can't explain it. It was so scary. I found myself wishing he would just go away, and leave me alone. I got what I wanted. He died. I have felt guilty ever since. I didn't want him to die.. I was just an afraid twelve year old girl, and I'll never understand why he was like that. Since then I've been going downhill. I know it could've been worse, but it's affected me greatly. I've had an extremely rough time since then, but I can't type anymore because if this is too long no one will want to read it.
Sorry that this is long. I have a lot more to say, but I'm ending it with this incident. I don't go outside, so I don't have any friends. I'm home-schooled and I guess I just need some advice, someone to listen and help me understand myself. I want to feel normal again. Can anyone help me?
Oh, also, I'm sorry if this is in the wrong section. I'm new.
I'm a sixteen year old girl. When I was twelve, I lived with my uncle. My grandfather also lived at the same house with us. I hardly knew him. He was in his early eighties, and a sweet old man at first. On his birthday, my mom and dad urged me to give him a pair of socks and warm pants. He lived in the basement, and they wanted me to give the gifts to him alone to surprise him. I went downstairs and sat by him on the couch. I handed him his gifts and smiled, etc. I was very nice, and I didn't lead him on in any way; he was my grandpa!! Then, what happened still bothers me to this day. He pulled me very close and.. well, made-out with me. I was quite scared, afraid of what'd happen next, so I squirmed and eventually pulled away, and ran up the stairs. I knew that it obviously wasn't proper "grandfatherly" behavior. For the next several weeks I dealt with him bothering me. He'd often stand near me, where my uncle and parents couldn't see him, and play with his penis, licking his lips, watching me. He always watched me. He stood near the stairs, where he could see me in the living room, and I could see him. His eyes were so filled with lust and hate, and just... I can't explain it. It was so scary. I found myself wishing he would just go away, and leave me alone. I got what I wanted. He died. I have felt guilty ever since. I didn't want him to die.. I was just an afraid twelve year old girl, and I'll never understand why he was like that. Since then I've been going downhill. I know it could've been worse, but it's affected me greatly. I've had an extremely rough time since then, but I can't type anymore because if this is too long no one will want to read it.
Sorry that this is long. I have a lot more to say, but I'm ending it with this incident. I don't go outside, so I don't have any friends. I'm home-schooled and I guess I just need some advice, someone to listen and help me understand myself. I want to feel normal again. Can anyone help me?
Oh, also, I'm sorry if this is in the wrong section. I'm new.
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