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I feel exhausted, i don't want to fight OCD anymore

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Krazoa

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Hi friends!

I suffer from OCD, which seems to be pure O or fear-based. I wouldn't have much trouble if thoughts were targetting me as a victim like it used to be, but they always hit my weak spots, in this case, my family. My OCD is constantly mutating into new obsessions from harm (which doesn't affect me anymore) to cause illness or something worst to my beloved ones due to my thoughts. I'm afraid something may happen to them.

The ironic thing is that I know by a fact that I'm not being logic at all but my thoughts feel so powerful, dark, etc (they are basically fed by past traumas/flashbacks which have a HUGE bad-vibe. They may be just thoughts and fears, but I can totally feel something really wrong about them like they can come true due to the energy I project through them. I can't enjoy basic daily things such as videogames since after having a bad thought, I must stop immediately because if I continue, my joy will be attached to that thought, that's really hard to undone.

My mind feels like clouds since all I have is anxiety 99% of the time, even on dreams. What should I do? I'm taking 200mg sertraline and I try to not fight, but I don't get too far. I'm a happy guy, I do enjoy my life, my stuff, my hobbies but I feel like I'm damaging my mind. Is there something I can do in order to re-wire my brain?.
 
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Hi and :welcome: to the forum.
Have you considered seeing a therapist/counsellor? CBT (ERP) is the recommended treatment for addressing OCD. My daughter has been having sessions, and it's helping.
 
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Krazoa

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Hi and :welcome: to the forum.
Have you considered seeing a therapist/counsellor? CBT (ERP) is the recommended treatment for addressing OCD. My daughter has been having sessions, and it's helping.
Thanks! Yeah, I'll give it a try as soon as possible. I'm 25 btw, I hope for better days..
 
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ugh I listen to music alll the time, I dont think its a bad thing ..
 
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MissPink

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Hi friends!

I suffer from OCD, which seems to be pure O or fear-based. I wouldn't have much trouble if thoughts were targetting me as a victim like it used to be, but they always hit my weak spots, in this case, my family. My OCD is constantly mutating into new obsessions from harm (which doesn't affect me anymore) to cause illness or something worst to my beloved ones due to my thoughts. I'm afraid something may happen to them.

The ironic thing is that I know by a fact that I'm not being logic at all but my thoughts feel so powerful, dark, etc (they are basically fed by past traumas/flashbacks which have a HUGE bad-vibe. They may be just thoughts and fears, but I can totally feel something really wrong about them like they can come true due to the energy I project through them. I can't enjoy basic daily things such as videogames since after having a bad thought, I must stop immediately because if I continue, my joy will be attached to that thought, that's really hard to undone.

My mind feels like clouds since all I have is anxiety 99% of the time, even on dreams. What should I do? I'm taking 200mg sertraline and I try to not fight, but I don't get too far. I'm a happy guy, I do enjoy my life, my stuff, my hobbies but I feel like I'm damaging my mind. Is there something I can do in order to re-wire my brain?.
Wow! I am shocked your on medication and you are STILL having problems like thinking back into the past! that is madness! surely the meds are suppose to help that it stop and make you calmer? how long have you been on medication for?

I am like that too however I am not on any medication. If I think of a bad thought then that thought stays with me forever and ever until it wears off and goes away then picks up on something 'new' to think about. I normally go through a list of compulsions that I do in my head daily. I had a couple of days 'free' from all of it, I believe it is anxiety too! I also get very overwhelmed and that can take over and make me feel very stressed.
 
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MissPink

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Actually just thinking about that medication you are taking, maybe you need a stronger pill?
 
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LALL

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I can sympathise with you , I’m the same and I’m taking the same amount of sertraline amoungst other meds , I suppose everyone’s different I’ve been on the meds for a long time , I feel it comes and goes there’s no doubt the OCD and anxiety it brings is crippling and sometimes it would be easy to give up , I have been doing ERP aswell and it’s even more challenging although once you complete that first ERP towards an OCD ritual the relief is incredible and shows you can move forward and there is some light towards the end , I wish you all the best and stay strong
 
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