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Soul
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So, um i'm 22, and i have self harmed on an off since i was 16.Its all that helps at the moment. I've confided in others before and i always say i will stop but i always relapse back.I just feel so numb all the time, and it helps me deal with all the pain i feel.I confided in my mother and she screamed at me calling me a monster, saying my scars were ugy telling me that others had it harder then me.She threatned to tell everyone we knew, to force me to go talk to a therapist.
I was 16.
Now i live away from home and i just feel pathetic all the time, i have panic attacks that only stop once i have harmed myself.I can't bring myself to confide in anyone face to face, because when i have they just say people have it worse, or to just stop being so sensitive.
Why is there something so wrong with me that i can't just be like everyone else.
i don't know why i joined this forum, maybe i just wanted to vent, to talk to people who may feel the same, without the guilt of making those around me disgusted by me.
i'm not asking for anyone to give me all the answers, but i hope i won't be judged.thank you
I was 16.
Now i live away from home and i just feel pathetic all the time, i have panic attacks that only stop once i have harmed myself.I can't bring myself to confide in anyone face to face, because when i have they just say people have it worse, or to just stop being so sensitive.
Why is there something so wrong with me that i can't just be like everyone else.
i don't know why i joined this forum, maybe i just wanted to vent, to talk to people who may feel the same, without the guilt of making those around me disgusted by me.
i'm not asking for anyone to give me all the answers, but i hope i won't be judged.thank you