I don't know why I'm so messed up

[Yoongs]

Sometimes I don't know what takes over me but “depressiveness” takes over for a minute and I literally have to myself out of it before I start thinking about dark shit, even when I'm happy my whole mood just goes down I mean it's not like I don’t think about constantly killing myself or harming myself but you know most times I'm chill with these feelings. But sometimes it gets too hard to manage and I end really dark places.

 

[TyGuy21]

For me, I tend to try to distract myself with other things. I hate school and slept all the time after school and never wanted to get up in the morning. I distracted myself with video games. It lets me "escape" reality for a little bit. There is always one thing people have that they can do. I also smoke weed occasionally to stop myself from going down that dark road of our mind. Have you tried talking with professionals?

 

[Yoongs]

For me, I tend to try to distract myself with other things. I hate school and slept all the time after school and never wanted to get up in the morning. I distracted myself with video games. It lets me "escape" reality for a little bit. There is always one thing people have that they can do. I also smoke weed occasionally to stop myself from going down that dark road of our mind. Have you tried talking with professionals?

My mom doesn't want to get me to a doctor since she doesn't want me to be diagnosed with a mental illness and i would be opted as mentally disabled. But I do want to see a professional.

 

[TyGuy21]

That’s a tough situation. I would recommend next yearly check up or doctor visit mention your feelings and thoughts. Could you possibly try talking with your mom about mental health?

 

[Yoongs]

That’s a tough situation. I would recommend next yearly check up or doctor visit mention your feelings and thoughts. Could you possibly try talking with your mom about mental health?

I've tried multiple times but she just brushes me off. We have a good relationship but i guess she doesn't want to admit that something may be wrong with me. Now i hope i can just make it until I'm of age to go and get diagnosed.

 

[Thelma27]

I had the same problem with my family they all knew I had a problem but I was made to believe I was very special and I needed protecting from evil spirits so I suffered in silence and took refuge in my belief often pleading with god to take me to live in heaven because I was finding coping very difficult please try speaking to your mum before your condition worsens and you end up stuck in a dark place on meds forever I wish I was diagnosed a lot earlier my parents and family still says things like u are ok it's a spiritual gift etc but I get very angry because it has taken me a long time to come to terms with my illness