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I feel so frustrated, Its a bad day for me today, im finding it hard to handle anything, haven't eaten for six days and yet my parents still don't notice me, even after i tried to kill myself they just came and picked me up a few days after i'd been in the hospital, its okay they have five other good kids why would they need me right ? Im just writing it all out cause the lady i go to talk too has been off sick and now I feel worse than ever, none of my friends want to hang around with me or if i do they don't really speak to me. I feel like i could just disappear and noone would really notice. Its driving me insane everyday its getting more and more for me to handle and the weight im carrying on my sholders is getting heavier to carry unlike the weight that hasn't been seen on me for almost a year. I don't get it people want to like you when your skinny, but if you get too skinny your hated by everyone. I want to start school again and finish my first year of sixth form but its getting too diffucult to stay at that school. Im just finding it so hard to cope. Im wasting away and becoming invisable. The only person who truly talks to me is my older half brother and i think thats because he feels he has too. Im scared im not strong enough to cope anymore
