
Carol1952
Well-known member
I feel so depressed because I feel like I am losing my best friend she use to sit with me three times a week and now if i get lucky i get her only once a week.I know it is her job driving people around but it isnt a full time job,I mean some days she can stay but for crying out loud it is getting much worse,she is the only one who listens to me and loves me i know she does as i do her.SHe even has said many times she wishes she could help me and she can really sympathize with anyone who has a mental illness she has mentioned many a times she cannot imagine what it is like to have anxieties and depression among other things,I know that I depend on her but I dont want anything to happen to her good lord if something did i would die inside a million times.I cant say anything to her about her job because the last time she did kind of snap at me for telling her how i felt i think she has a mental illness to i do know that she has mild depression,SHe says it isnt her fault that is her job i know and understand that but why do I Have to break down and cry whenever she cannot stay?SHe herself even knows that I am afraid of losing her and she said that is not going to happen but still i worry.I just feel alone without her.I feel the need t o be around her 24 hours a day and i know that is not possible.SHe knows to that it bothers me a lot when she cannot stay.I am sorry but i had to get it out.I cannot lose her.