- Aug 4, 2020
i feel like everyone around me wants to murder me. a family friend offered me cake and i ate it and then tried to throw up because i thought it would be poisoned. i feel like i'm in danger all the time and i cant do anything besides laying in bed and sleeping otherwise i feel tired and exhausted. and when i think about everything i feel like it's not normal to think like this but when i think about writing on this forum or asking for help i feel like everyone goes through this and i'm just dramatic. i dont know what to do. and im so afraid i may be right. cajse it's not unheard of to be murdered. so i dont know maybe i am actually right and this is my gut feeling but im not ready to die. of course i am away from my mom. she is the most important person in my life and i am deathly afraid that i will die right when im away from her. im so so scared that im right about this.