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jodiddly
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I’m 19 and a college student, and my mind is out of control.
I know I’m depressed. I find it hard to get out of bed and motivate myself. I cry a lot. I hate myself as a person, my personality, how I look. I have anxiety a lot too and I have self harmed
But I also can’t control my thoughts. I feel like my mind is out of control. I see mental images of me slamming my head into windows or. breaking down and becoming insane even though I am not currently insane I don't think. I am afraid that I will one day go insane without knowing.
Sometimes I think I see things moving but they aren’t. I feel paranoid a lot of the time and think of all the ways that people I know can hurt me if they wanted to.
I feel like I am on autopilot a lot of the time.
I can’t read people and I don’t know if they like me. But I’m very clingy and desperate for people to like me because I can’t handle being alone. The loneliness makes me suicidal. I try to be a good friend and I help everyone and am nice to everyone so they don't leave me and I never let anyone know about my struggles
I hit myself in the head when I’m upset and I don’t know why. I make so many mistakes. I don’t feel like I’m coherent at all right now and I’m sorry but I am desperate because I don’t know why I’m like this.
I know I’m depressed. I find it hard to get out of bed and motivate myself. I cry a lot. I hate myself as a person, my personality, how I look. I have anxiety a lot too and I have self harmed
But I also can’t control my thoughts. I feel like my mind is out of control. I see mental images of me slamming my head into windows or. breaking down and becoming insane even though I am not currently insane I don't think. I am afraid that I will one day go insane without knowing.
Sometimes I think I see things moving but they aren’t. I feel paranoid a lot of the time and think of all the ways that people I know can hurt me if they wanted to.
I feel like I am on autopilot a lot of the time.
I can’t read people and I don’t know if they like me. But I’m very clingy and desperate for people to like me because I can’t handle being alone. The loneliness makes me suicidal. I try to be a good friend and I help everyone and am nice to everyone so they don't leave me and I never let anyone know about my struggles
I hit myself in the head when I’m upset and I don’t know why. I make so many mistakes. I don’t feel like I’m coherent at all right now and I’m sorry but I am desperate because I don’t know why I’m like this.