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Hidinginabush

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I'm...I dont know just what's real anymore or if I'm even making this stuff up or just if its real
My parents were suicidal since I was 12, and I dont know for about 6 years and every second day they would talk about how they should die and kill us with them, I didn't knew apparently that I should not really think or overthink about it, but I just kept living in a different world I would think about it all the time and I would had these crazy headaches, they weren't normal, I used to scream, the pain was so loud I dont know. They went away and those feelings too, then the other day I was in a small fight with my parents and it all came out, all those feelings and everything and now those headaches are back and I dont know I my nerves get so tensed i twitch. And i feel like 4 different person in a day, I can feel it I dont know, it's not my mood, I just feel, it's just I dont know, like somedays ago this happened in just around 2 mins "I'm going to suicide....wait what why would I suicide why was I thinking it....I'm going to suicide.....wait wtf....I should sucide" I dont know anymore if it's figment of my imagination or im thinking too much, I dont know sometimes it's all just like a mp4 playing, sometimes
I just wake up in pain, it's just there
 
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Could it be a tension headache? :hug:
I dont know, it just doesn't go, it's like I wake up I dont feel some parts of my brain and then I do then I dont, I dont know what's the trigger because I notice if I take tension and would make sense if it happened after I did, but it's like I'm having a good day and next day I'm drowning, I just want it to go, I just want to be normal and it's kindof been too long, and I'm tired
 
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