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Emma2605

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hi,
I’ve felt very bad for the past few weeks. It’s never been this bad. I never really confided in anyone. When I’ve tried, the words haven’t occurred to me. Or rather, I always think so much and quickly that I can’t say all of them and then skip individual words or just stop talking because I think its pointless to keep talking because nobody understands me anyway. I know my family and my best friend are always there for me, but I just can’t talk about it. There is so much to say but I don’t know who to talk to. When I feel worse again, I isolate myself. It gotten so bad that I feel totally uncomfortable in public. I also had very severe mood swings lately. I am either in a good mood or felling totally bad, guilty, depressed, ... My mood often changes throughout the day, but sometimes I’m in a good mood for a week and then totally depressed the next week. I have also good days, but not so often in the past weeks. I haven't been able to sleep properly for a long time and I'm often irritable. I´ve thought about getting professional help many times, but it hurts to talk about my problems. And I´m afraid to confide in someone who doesn’t understand me anyway, and I´ve had this pain in vain. I know people can understand it a little, but not as much as it hurts me.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I was in control and felt better, but now I kind of feel worse than ever…

Please don’t judge for my English lol
 
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Hey, @Emma2605, and welcome to the forum. Sorry you are going through all of this. These seem like they could be chalked up to a number of things, so do you think you could write down what is going on and find a therapist whom you can just tell that you can't speak about it properly right now and go from there? I know it's hard to confide in anyone, particularly a stranger, but it can often be so necessary to get on the track to feeling better. Hell, English isn't even your first language and you did a great job of explaining it here.

I really hope you find the forum helpful and get some good advice here. I also hope you will open the door to the possibility of getting professional help, as you don't have to feel this bad. Hugs to you.
 
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I used too be afraid too go outside during the height of my paranoid sessions. N I would wonder when I would snap out of it n be better? But it’s a process n take baby steps because a healthy lifestyle we all do derserve😊😊😊😊
 
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Express urself n gets stuff out instead we bottle everything all up !!
 
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hi,
I’ve felt very bad for the past few weeks. It’s never been this bad. I never really confided in anyone. When I’ve tried, the words haven’t occurred to me. Or rather, I always think so much and quickly that I can’t say all of them and then skip individual words or just stop talking because I think its pointless to keep talking because nobody understands me anyway. I know my family and my best friend are always there for me, but I just can’t talk about it. There is so much to say but I don’t know who to talk to. When I feel worse again, I isolate myself. It gotten so bad that I feel totally uncomfortable in public. I also had very severe mood swings lately. I am either in a good mood or felling totally bad, guilty, depressed, ... My mood often changes throughout the day, but sometimes I’m in a good mood for a week and then totally depressed the next week. I have also good days, but not so often in the past weeks. I haven't been able to sleep properly for a long time and I'm often irritable. I´ve thought about getting professional help many times, but it hurts to talk about my problems. And I´m afraid to confide in someone who doesn’t understand me anyway, and I´ve had this pain in vain. I know people can understand it a little, but not as much as it hurts me.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I was in control and felt better, but now I kind of feel worse than ever…

Please don’t judge for my English lol
The symptoms you describe sound an awful lot like Bipolar Disorder (which I have). This can be managed with medications and therapy. If you can get in to see someone for a diagnosis they can get together a treatment plan so you can feel better. It’s worth taking the time to invest in your health this way. Whatever it is that is troubling you can be made better with (often) the right medications and support. xo, j
 
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If I forget my meds at night the next day I fall too pieces. Meds should work as a foundation then after u can build ur character or meds help u just be at peace in the moment
 
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Hey, @Emma2605, and welcome to the forum. Sorry you are going through all of this. These seem like they could be chalked up to a number of things, so do you think you could write down what is going on and find a therapist whom you can just tell that you can't speak about it properly right now and go from there? I know it's hard to confide in anyone, particularly a stranger, but it can often be so necessary to get on the track to feeling better. Hell, English isn't even your first language and you did a great job of explaining it here.

I really hope you find the forum helpful and get some good advice here. I also hope you will open the door to the possibility of getting professional help, as you don't have to feel this bad. Hugs to you.
Thanks for replying. I'll try to get professional help, but it sounds so difficult to me that I don't know if I can do it. I want to get help but at the same time I don't. Its strange. There is so much I don't talk about, for example my eating disorder. I don't know why I'm so scared of talk to someone. I've always wanted to learn to play the piano and signed up for classes. I hope this helps me a little and gives me a little peace.
thanks again, Emma
 
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I used too be afraid too go outside during the height of my paranoid sessions. N I would wonder when I would snap out of it n be better? But it’s a process n take baby steps because a healthy lifestyle we all do derserve😊😊😊😊
Thanks for replying. I'll try to get professional help, but it sounds so difficult to me that I don't know if I can do it. I want to get help but at the same time I don't. Its strange. There is so much I don't talk about, for example my eating disorder. I don't know why I'm so scared of talk to someone. I've always wanted to learn to play the piano and signed up for classes. I hope this helps me a little and gives me a little peace.
thanks again, Emma
That is huge! Good for you. Going after something you like, getting better at it, getting out and it builds confidence that you can do even more. When you're ready, seek some treatment. I think it's a lot less intimidating over zoom, but some people get more anxiety that way (I do for most things, but for therapy it's fine). You do deserve to feel better, but I get it. So many things I want I just sort of don't at the same time, or just don't have it in me to do all it will take to get there. I guess we take it steps at a time, it's less overwhelming. That's awesome doing it!!
 
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The symptoms you describe sound an awful lot like Bipolar Disorder (which I have). This can be managed with medications and therapy. If you can get in to see someone for a diagnosis they can get together a treatment plan so you can feel better. It’s worth taking the time to invest in your health this way. Whatever it is that is troubling you can be made better with (often) the right medications and support. xo, j
Thanks for the answer, it helped me a lot.
 
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That is huge! Good for you. Going after something you like, getting better at it, getting out and it builds confidence that you can do even more. When you're ready, seek some treatment. I think it's a lot less intimidating over zoom, but some people get more anxiety that way (I do for most things, but for therapy it's fine). You do deserve to feel better, but I get it. So many things I want I just sort of don't at the same time, or just don't have it in me to do all it will take to get there. I guess we take it steps at a time, it's less overwhelming. That's awesome doing it!!
Thank you so much💜
 
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