naya
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I have been having doubt about my body size since I entered puberty. Even tho I was in no means obese I did have a little extra baby fat which I was very insecure about. School mates and family members would often talk to me as ifwI was different. I remember my mum once saying I have a very fat ass when I was twelve. And my little sister and female friend being slender didn't help either.
As I entered high school my body reporportionated itself a bit which left me with a quite pleasing hourglass figure. My weight was more or less the same but the fat was now in my tights, booty and a little in my upper arms. Overall I still felt very healthy. My family had now stopped their comments (except my skinny sister). Hoewer, i started comparing my body size to one of my classmates who was obese. I looked at her legs, belly,arms and thought to myself "damn you are once again the fattest girl in class" which was sooo not true!! There were a few days when i was happy and could see that our sizes were nothing alike and I tried to convince myself to stop being so conscious of it.
It's been a few years and I have tried to solve my issues by loosing some weight. It is not a great success since i live with my family and have a hard time controlling my own diet. I have accidentally underrated a few times (which scared me a lot), have noticed i do sometimes overeat out of boredom, and seen a fear and discomfort of eating in public appear.
I have spent thid whole summer vacation worrying about lossing the 4 kg I have gained during quarantine (2 more left
) and have made some nice plans to avoid snacking during the upcoming school year. But today my mum said something in regards to me not wanting to go on a mountain trip (just cuz it's far and I am sick in car & the last time i went i hurt my feet) She said "I can't go if you don't! It's ok if we are two being DRAGGED up there but alone..." I was in shock. I love walking/climbing and on the last trip not long ago i was just behind my sister while my mum and dad were far behind (mum is a bit overweight and dad was keeping an eye on her). The moment she said that i emediatly looked myself in the mirror and wanted to cry. What is wrong again?? I fell healthy and my befsuper super flat rn.
I really don't know anymore, I am so confused and angry. I am already thinking of looking for help for some other problems I have but now this is adding to it.
Thanks if someone reads this it means a lot. I am scared of annoying people i trust with all this again.
)I have been having doubt about my body size since I entered puberty. Even tho I was in no means obese I did have a little extra baby fat which I was very insecure about. School mates and family members would often talk to me as ifwI was different. I remember my mum once saying I have a very fat ass when I was twelve. And my little sister and female friend being slender didn't help either.
As I entered high school my body reporportionated itself a bit which left me with a quite pleasing hourglass figure. My weight was more or less the same but the fat was now in my tights, booty and a little in my upper arms. Overall I still felt very healthy. My family had now stopped their comments (except my skinny sister). Hoewer, i started comparing my body size to one of my classmates who was obese. I looked at her legs, belly,arms and thought to myself "damn you are once again the fattest girl in class" which was sooo not true!! There were a few days when i was happy and could see that our sizes were nothing alike and I tried to convince myself to stop being so conscious of it.
It's been a few years and I have tried to solve my issues by loosing some weight. It is not a great success since i live with my family and have a hard time controlling my own diet. I have accidentally underrated a few times (which scared me a lot), have noticed i do sometimes overeat out of boredom, and seen a fear and discomfort of eating in public appear.
I have spent thid whole summer vacation worrying about lossing the 4 kg I have gained during quarantine (2 more left
) and have made some nice plans to avoid snacking during the upcoming school year. But today my mum said something in regards to me not wanting to go on a mountain trip (just cuz it's far and I am sick in car & the last time i went i hurt my feet) She said "I can't go if you don't! It's ok if we are two being DRAGGED up there but alone..." I was in shock. I love walking/climbing and on the last trip not long ago i was just behind my sister while my mum and dad were far behind (mum is a bit overweight and dad was keeping an eye on her). The moment she said that i emediatly looked myself in the mirror and wanted to cry. What is wrong again?? I fell healthy and my befsuper super flat rn.I really don't know anymore, I am so confused and angry. I am already thinking of looking for help for some other problems I have but now this is adding to it.
Thanks if someone reads this it means a lot. I am scared of annoying people i trust with all this again.
