- Nov 7, 2019
If I'm not in pain, I feel nothing. I don't feel like myself if I'm not self harming because I like the scars. I see the scars and I'm me that way. I do good things for others, but it's only what I'm supposed to do. I have Christian beliefs, but I can't find it in myself to include other people in my life. I find trust a very important thing, but I can't trust others. I trust only pain. I don't think that this is where my life should be. If I can't find true relationships with people, what's the point? I shouldn't be here just for me, just to feel pain. But if I'm not in pain, I feel nothing.