I just don't know who I am. It feels like my soul isn't a part of me or something. Like I'm some kind of robot going through life. Sometimes I look back on what happened through the day and wonder if it actually happened or not. I used to have an obsession with the number 8 and I feel this thought coming back to me. I'm scared of that happening. I saw that number everywhere years ago, even in the hospital I was in. I don't want to go back to a hospital. It feels like I'm going backwards in life too. I'm not getting better I guess. My emotions change every second and I still don't know who I am.