
elliepaige20
Well-known member
I’m in such a bad place at the moment and I don’t know what to do. It took me so long to overcome my trust issues but now things are so bad again. I feel like everyone around me is untrustworthy and has an ulterior motive and it honestly terrifies me, because I truly value my friendships and I feel like I’m either going to ruin them with my trust issues or they’re going to hurt me in some way. Someone put an idea in my head the other day about one of my friends possibly seeing my ex and it’s been on my mind ever since. There’s no real reason to think they are doing anything behind my back it was more of a joke someone made, but now it’s all I can think about. I have a real problem opening up to people because I feel like they use that against me; like they know I’m vulnerable and therefore my weak spots. My self esteem is completely rock bottom at the moment, and I just want all the madness to stop. I’m on medication but I don’t think it’s working much anymore. My brain won’t shut up and my sleeping pattern is awful. I’m just at a loss with everything 
