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I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this.

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I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for years now, along with that I have other mental illnesses and also many physical illnesses. I’ve tried so many different medications and nothing is helping. I dip every single night, nothing changes that, no matter what I do to help myself. I just want all this suffering to end, I want to be happy, but I am losing any hope that this’ll ever happen. I’m lost and feel like the only way this will go away is if I ended my life. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I don’t want to die though I just can’t keep doing this and I don’t know what to do.
 
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I can understand wanting the pain to end. Depression is a very cruel illness. Do you get any effect at all from the antidepressant? For me, mine takes the edge off it but I am still low.
 
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Do you talk to anyone about these things? Have you got friends or family who are supportive?
 
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Unfortunately suicide is not a solution. The brain just invents it as a way of coping, suicidal ideation is a coping mechanism. But it is not realistic. I bet there are people who would be distraught to the point where they would be left scarred if you left this earth. And also deep down in yourself, you want your life too. Thus suicide is not an option.

Honestly though, I know what you mean. The pain of being alive is excruciating and I just live with it. The only way to survive is to get tougher
 
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I can understand wanting the pain to end. Depression is a very cruel illness. Do you get any effect at all from the antidepressant? For me, mine takes the edge off it but I am still low.
Only a little, and it’s only really during the day, It doesn’t really help much in the evening. I am prescribed diazepam to help me when I’m struggling but it’s at such a low dose it doesn’t do much.
 
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Only a little, and it’s only really during the day, It doesn’t really help much in the evening. I am prescribed diazepam to help me when I’m struggling but it’s at such a low dose it doesn’t do much.
In that case could you talk to your GP about taking something at night? I was taking quetiapine at night and something like that may be helpful.
 
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Do you talk to anyone about these things? Have you got friends or family who are supportive?
Yeah, my family try to support me but they struggle to know what to do with me when I dip. They call mental health support line but they never really listen and they all say the same things anyway.
 
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Unfortunately suicide is not a solution. The brain just invents it as a way of coping, suicidal ideation is a coping mechanism. But it is not realistic. I bet there are people who would be distraught to the point where they would be left scarred if you left this earth. And also deep down in yourself, you want your life too. Thus suicide is not an option.

Honestly though, I know what you mean. The pain of being alive is excruciating and I just live with it. The only way to survive is to get tougher
Thank you.
 
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In that case could you talk to your GP about taking something at night? I was taking quetiapine at night and something like that may be helpful.
Yeah, I already take quetiapine at night. With me quetiapine helps for like a week after it’s been increased and then I dip again. My GP won’t prescribe me anything mental health related they’re super awkward around psychiatric medications but I have my mental health team they end up having to call my doctors up to put through the prescription request.
 
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Yeah, I already take quetiapine at night. With me quetiapine helps for like a week after it’s been increased and then I dip again. My GP won’t prescribe me anything mental health related they’re super awkward around psychiatric medications but I have my mental health team they end up having to call my doctors up to put through the prescription request.
How frustrating. Is it possible to ask to see a psychiatrist? I was discharged from my psychiatrist but when I needed a medication change I was put in touch with a mental health nurse. He then got a psychiatrist to call me.
 
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Yeah, I already take quetiapine at night. With me quetiapine helps for like a week after it’s been increased and then I dip again. My GP won’t prescribe me anything mental health related they’re super awkward around psychiatric medications but I have my mental health team they end up having to call my doctors up to put through the prescription request.
Everyone has their own take on this, but personally I found quietapine to be a very funny drug, and I stopped taking it. It has some strange side effects.
Generally I am against prescribing the mentally ill random cocktails of medications and treating them like guinea pigs until something works, simply because of a) the side effects b) it creates a long-term dependency.
Obviously having said that pills can help stabilise a person.

I think you would find exercise a useful anti depressant. And watching what goes in your body too.

I am truly sorry to hear you are feeling like this, I know how bad it gets.
 
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How frustrating. Is it possible to ask to see a psychiatrist? I was discharged from my psychiatrist but when I needed a medication change I was put in touch with a mental health nurse. He then got a psychiatrist to call me.
I already have a psychiatrist and mental health nurses too. I spoke to my psychiatrist a few weeks ago I think, my antidepressant dose was increased but the dips at night are still the same. My psychiatrist usually sends a letter or calls my GP to issue a prescription but my GP never look and then they say my psychiatrists secretary needs to call them before.
 
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Everyone has their own take on this, but personally I found quietapine to be a very funny drug, and I stopped taking it. It has some strange side effects.
Generally I am against prescribing the mentally ill random cocktails of medications and treating them like guinea pigs until something works, simply because of a) the side effects b) it creates a long-term dependency.
Obviously having said that pills can help stabilise a person.

I think you would find exercise a useful anti depressant. And watching what goes in your body too.

I am truly sorry to hear you are feeling like this, I know how bad it gets.
I haven’t had any side effects with quetiapine I don’t think, what side effects did you get with it. I’ve found it to be good when it works but it’s as though I quickly build a tolerance to the increased dose and therefore the positive effects of the drug only really last a week or so.
Thank you
 
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i'm gonna try to stick with you on this. i have to quit drinking, it's not like i have to i mean i have to. i been drinking so heavy last 8 moths that last month i started getting bad neurological stuff. trembling fingers and pins n needles in toes, i gotta cut it out tonight and no excuses. so as hard as it it for you i be here for you no matter what bc bottom line we need better lives!
 
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