I’ve always been depressed and anxious. I used to go to therapy, but around 21 I stopped going because I felt guilty about my aunt paying out of pocket for me to go, plus I don’t think the therapist did much to help. Over the years, it seems to have gotten worse (25 now). Even though I’ve been depressed, I motivated myself very much into my jobs. I’ve always performed greatly and my bosses always appreciated my work greatly. I started a new job and I’m about to leave only being there for a year. It was the best job ever, if your wondering I was a lead teacher for an infant classroom. And worked my butt off for that position. I’m leaving due to coworkers not listening to me, and almost causing a terrible accident that could have been prevented, if they followed what I ask. Thankfully as messed up as this sounds, I’m glad I wasn’t there to experience it because I would feel so guilty (went home for the day). I don’t want to go into too much details about that...But anyways,, next week is my last week and a part of me is very sad to leave because I love the kids and the work I put in, but I have to because I feel like it will get worse the longer I’m there because of my assistants not listening or caring to. I know they don’t like me, which is fine. I’m only there for the paycheck and children. Anyways, I have no back up job... but I feel so drained. I guess I want a break from everything. I don’t want to deal with anyone anymore, not even my friends and family, but I force myself to because I don’t want them to worry. I don’t feel like myself especially leaving a job and not wanting to work for a while. Deep down, that’s not realistic for me. Idk...what should I do? How long of a break should I take? I have money saved up, but obviously I don’t want to be out of work for too long, but I know I need to take a break to recover. Feeling extremely unmotivated as well. I now don’t have insurance to cover the cost of therapy because I was under my job’s. I feel stuck as it’s been a while since I went to therapy. Sorry for the long post.