- Nov 24, 2020
The last couple of months my mental health has been really good. Mainly because I finally accepted that I am trans and I came out and started hormone therapy. Things have been really great. Ive quit self harming and was actually looking forward to life. Then, a couple of nights ago I dissociated. it was only A few seconds long but ever since I’ve wanted to self harm. I feel like a fog over me. I’ve been waking Up tired, I’m just not myself. In my head, if I self harm it’ll snap me out of this. But logically I know that it would probably just send me deeper in depression. I can also feel myself slipping into hypomania. I get real creative and obsess over leatherwork or cooking and I’m starting to do that. I guess I really am bipolar. I guess I was just hoping that once I became comfortable with myself that this part of me would go away. I know it doesn’t work like that.