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It hurts too much. Please don't judge me.
 
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You really are going through it right now aren't you angelflower? I would argue that its the pain ending you crave not death itself. Hold on in there and keep talking to us, we are hear to listen.

Try reading through Suicidal Crisis and see if anything there helps you. You never know, it might do. Take care please and keep talking.
 
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You really are going through it right now aren't you angelflower? I would argue that its the pain ending you crave not death itself. Hold on in there and keep talking to us, we are hear to listen.

Try reading through Suicidal Crisis and see if anything there helps you. You never know, it might do. Take care please and keep talking.
Thanks so much for sharing with me Calypso. If I go ahead and commit suicide this evening, no-one will find me for 2 days. I'm desperately trying to allow myself to be safe, but I feel really defeated.
 
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How are you angelflower, I haven't heard from you for a few days. I am very worried and want to know that you are safe. Please hold on and know that there are always ways through things even when we feel that there aren't. YOu need support and we are here to give you that.
 
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How are you angelflower, I haven't heard from you for a few days. I am very worried and want to know that you are safe. Please hold on and know that there are always ways through things even when we feel that there aren't. YOu need support and we are here to give you that.
Hi lovely. I am so sorry you are worried. I am doing ok. Spoke to my therapist yesterday and we're going to try taking focus off my suicidal urges and concentrate on doing pleasurable things. Not ignoring the suicidal stuff but acknowledging it's there then shifting attention to something else. Hope that makes sense. I have been told by mental health matters that I can phone them every day, even when it's not a crisis. I don't know if that option is available in all areas or not. I am trying so hard. I need to give myself a break from the intense suicidality I have been experiencing over recent weeks/months. I deserve to be ok, even though I find it hard saying those words.

Thanks so much Calypso for caring. You're lovely. xxxx
 
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Hi lovely. I am so sorry you are worried. I am doing ok. Spoke to my therapist yesterday and we're going to try taking focus off my suicidal urges and concentrate on doing pleasurable things. Not ignoring the suicidal stuff but acknowledging it's there then shifting attention to something else. Hope that makes sense. I have been told by mental health matters that I can phone them every day, even when it's not a crisis. I don't know if that option is available in all areas or not. I am trying so hard. I need to give myself a break from the intense suicidality I have been experiencing over recent weeks/months. I deserve to be ok, even though I find it hard saying those words.

Thanks so much Calypso for caring. You're lovely. xxxx
Hi Angelflower,
Really glad your doing ok, hope the therapy will continue to help you.
Take care
 
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Hi Angelflower,
Really glad your doing ok, hope the therapy will continue to help you.
Take care
Thanks lovely. I'm trying not to make too much about doing ok, so I don't get overwhelmed. Gonna have a bath now and read a magazine, then if I need to will phone Samaritans after. I hope you are doing well. xxxx
 
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Thanks lovely. I'm trying not to make too much about doing ok, so I don't get overwhelmed. Gonna have a bath now and read a magazine, then if I need to will phone Samaritans after. I hope you are doing well. xxxx
Hi Angelflower,
Thanks for asking I'm starting to feel better.
I'm glad the Samaritans helps and mental health matters.
Take care
 
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Hi Angelflower,
Really glad your doing ok, hope the therapy will continue to help you.
Take care
Can't say why on here, but something happened today which has caused me to feel suicidal and struggling to manage. It's so f**king unfair, just when I feel like i'm getting somewhere.
 
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Hi Angelflower,
I'm really sorry your struggling, please phone or text or email the Samaritans.
Sorry something happened that has made you suicidal.
We all get setbacks, and do understand.
Take care
 
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Hi Angelflower,
I'm really sorry your struggling, please phone or text or email the Samaritans.
Sorry something happened that has made you suicidal.
We all get setbacks, and do understand.
Take care
Thanks Mayflower. I appreciate your support and understanding. I'm fed up of feeling so scared and suicidal. It's all getting too much for me.
 
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Can you ask for more input angel? I feel for you very much. xx
Thanks write, is very kind of you to reply. I have lots of people I can phone, but phoning doesn't always help. Yet again I am spending an evening battling suicidal urges.
 
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Can you go to A&E and ask for crisis input? I hate the phone and agree it doesn't change much, but depends so much on who speak to xx
 
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Can you go to A&E and ask for crisis input? I hate the phone and agree it doesn't change much, but depends so much on who speak to xx
I'm not sure I want to be safe anymore. xxxx
 
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