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irtea
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Hello,
I have a problem that has existed for years, and the solution is not simple and probably not even possible.
I have mental illness that has not only affected but completely destroyed my entire life, there is no cure, there isn't even a diagnosis, there is no treatment available and I've been through mental health services and they simply can not help. But I've been dealing with it since I was 8 and in some ways I cope with it.
The symptons are endless, I could walk outside right now past the spider under the stairs and poke it. Five minutes later, I could develop fully grown arachnophobia, see it, and have a panic attack completely paralyzing me for five minutes or until it moves near me, then all I can do is scream until I get help, and then I sweat for hours unable to get the image out of my head. I could be sitting here without too much (but this) on my mind, sitting in my messy room and then from nowhere start seeing horrifying things - It's always the same, some faceless thing with a face which doesn't even make sense in any form of logic, shouldn't be scary yet is the most horrifying thing I've ever seen.
Right now, the one thing that never comes and goes and always stays is my complete inability to concentrate or focus. I can't get anything done! I can't even play a video game because no matter how hard I try I simply can not focus on ANYTHING. There are simple things I miss, and before I know it the game is over and I don't really even remember what happened.
I've tried meditation, even coffee, eating/drinking better, everything... no success.
And I need to be at least able to focus
I'm male and 21 years old if that changes anything.
I have a problem that has existed for years, and the solution is not simple and probably not even possible.
I have mental illness that has not only affected but completely destroyed my entire life, there is no cure, there isn't even a diagnosis, there is no treatment available and I've been through mental health services and they simply can not help. But I've been dealing with it since I was 8 and in some ways I cope with it.
The symptons are endless, I could walk outside right now past the spider under the stairs and poke it. Five minutes later, I could develop fully grown arachnophobia, see it, and have a panic attack completely paralyzing me for five minutes or until it moves near me, then all I can do is scream until I get help, and then I sweat for hours unable to get the image out of my head. I could be sitting here without too much (but this) on my mind, sitting in my messy room and then from nowhere start seeing horrifying things - It's always the same, some faceless thing with a face which doesn't even make sense in any form of logic, shouldn't be scary yet is the most horrifying thing I've ever seen.
Right now, the one thing that never comes and goes and always stays is my complete inability to concentrate or focus. I can't get anything done! I can't even play a video game because no matter how hard I try I simply can not focus on ANYTHING. There are simple things I miss, and before I know it the game is over and I don't really even remember what happened.
I've tried meditation, even coffee, eating/drinking better, everything... no success.
And I need to be at least able to focus
I'm male and 21 years old if that changes anything.