- May 2, 2020
For almost 3 years i have been getting more and more apathetic and im now at a point where i basically can not feel anything. I am completely numb and i get no joy out of life what so ever. I also have issues with dissociation/depersonalization and life doesnt feel real, it doesnt feel like i exist anymore. 3 years of my life have been completely wasted. During that time i havent been living, ive simply been existing. I really can not take this anymore. I just want to feel things again and enjoy things again. The problem is i cant tell anyone. I have a great family and i know that they would be supportive of me but for some reason, for the last 3 years that ive been dealing with this, i havent been able to say a word about what im going through. They have no idea that im dealing with any of this. Its not just that it feels hard to talk about, it feels absolutely impossible. Like it isnt even an option in my mind. Is there any way i can break through this invisible barrier in my brain and get the help i need? My life is completely on autopilot and i cant seem to take back control of it.