- Jun 8, 2019
I've not been coping particularly well but I've been managing to drink maybe 1-2 cups of water a day. My eating feels out of control- although I have anorexia, I also seem to binge to perpetuate any guilty feelings sometimes, if I feel like I've gone over my 'limit'. I've put on maybe 2kg in two days and it just makes me feel awful, especially when I then get praised for it by my boyfriend who so desperately wants me to recover.
My blood results came back and I have iron deficiency anemia. I have tablets that I need to take twice a day but I've thrown a few in the bin already because of my fear of damaging my liver (my uncle went into hospital a few years ago with a damaged liver from alcohol abuse, and his brother died from liver failure for the same reasons) and also because it's like a punishment for eating too much. Today is the dizziest I've ever felt