I have hated my own existence ever since i was a child. I despise myself, and everything about my life. I cannot think clearly for a second without thoughts of suicide, sadness and self-loathing entering my mind. I really, really really don't want to live. In 20 years I have achieved nothing. I am a worthless human. I really don't understand how anyone else gets by every day, enjoying life, maintains friendships and relationships and gets stuff done. I on the other hand, can barely get out of bed. I feel so isolated from the real world. Does anyone else feel like me? Has anyone ever truly managed to recover from depression and feel free again? Please offer any comments or personal stories xx