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I can feel it coming -not a nice post- WARNING!

Hayyyleyyy

Hayyyleyyy

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A breakdown, I dont feel right at all! Help!

(posted on another forum too~)

I feel like Im heading for a major breakdown, my first 'proper' one, i've had ones were certain symptoms kick in (like my vertigo) and i turn wierd, staying in the house for months on end, addicted to bleach.

But I feel like Im heading that way again, everything is weird, it foesnt feel right, the world is moving I am not, i feel like im shaking but im still!
My moods are crazy, im manic one moment angry and aggresive the next.

I want to murder, I want to kill something, I have major urges to kill something, I cant stop plotting, I dont want to tell anyone, I dont want to be locked away.

Every noise is making me angry, my hamster is banging in its cage, i keep getting images in my head of me throwing it, slaughtering it, cutting it in half... it wont go away.

Im not sleeping, at all, I used to be in bed by 9 now its gone 12.30 and im still awake, feeling like im on fire, plugged in but sick. crazy!


This post is making no sense but neither is my mind, I think I need help.

I cant tell anyone, I cant be locked away, I wont be locked away!

I dont even want to self harm, I just feel wierd, i cant even explain it, i feel like im about to explode!
 
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I really think you need to talk to someone it doesnt mean you will automatically be locked up. You havent acted on your urges but if you can talk to your mh professional my hope is they will be understanding to you
Hugs
Messy x
 
Hayyyleyyy

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I really think you need to talk to someone it doesnt mean you will automatically be locked up. You havent acted on your urges but if you can talk to your mh professional my hope is they will be understanding to you
Hugs
Messy x
Im seeing my psych on 6th july so will wait until then.
 
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