You matter in this world. People need you. You were born to be happy and live a good life. What you arr feeling is not permanent. It will pass.
Go for music therapy. Listening to good music will help you as it is helping me survive.
These songs from youtube are good:
Fearless by Jasmine Murray
Good Morning by Mandisa
Overcomer by Mandisa
I Believe I Can Fly by R Kelly
Don't worry be happy by Bob Marley
Listen to them daily as needed.
Also, exercise is good for you. According to studies, exercise makes one smarter and happy.
Remember, you were made to survive and really be happy.
I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I totally understand. Please hold on for a few more days. Re-evaluate everything, think of others even if you don't think of yourself. I believe you matter and are strong enough to stay here. You matter and are loved.
We all understand and feel your pain. We have been there before but are still here. We want you with us.
First, stop call selfy unworthy. You are worthy.
Self esteem is total nonsense. It is pressure we puts on selfy to compare with other person. We do not need to compare with other person. Let them run. You as good as any other person. Every person got strength and weakness.
Get help. You can always call ambulance and go ER. Talk to duty doctor. Call your family and friend and tell them how you feel. Not your fault.
You will get better because we all did. Aim small. Just do small task. Make selfy sandwich and hot drink. You acheived some thing.
You will be ok. You done good to post on forum. We are here for you.
i would talk to the ER or your doctor and tell them you need help. everyone needs it can you make an appointment with a doctor? depression seems like its white and black when its bad its really bad but once you find something that treats your depression everything is bright again. try your treatment options and try to talk to your doctor so you can start feeling better
If you in UK you can use Samaritan it is best volunteer hotline in the world. They also do work in prisons. I think every country have hotline. My UK friend online always call Samaritan for chat. She say better than pay money for croaker counsillor. Samaritan is ok if you only chat they are real cool dude.
I'm not sure what you mean, but I was speaking to the OP. You know, that helping others gives a purpose to life. At least I feel very good helping others and I'd like to think I can help them in the future. If I died I would not be able to.