- May 7, 2011
I know I am not doing too good just now, both physically and mentally. Having had to stop Amisulpride in May because of the Prolactin issue no substitute has been put in place alongside the new anti-depressant, Venlafaxine. I have been struggling ever since to be well, and of course now shaking with the shock of the MS diagnosis. The latter feels like a real struggle to get access to the Neurologist and agree treatment. Some of my family responses seem a little bizarre - not really acknowledging the illness, leaving me on my own with it and so forth and I feel isolated. I see the Consultant Psychiatrist next week and I will be relieved to discuss my situation and my need for the right medication. I know I am not too stable. Up and down. Cannot concentrate. Tearful and emotional. Can people tell me is it wrong of me to be telling one of my sons No, I am not going to be taking your 2 children (aged 2 and 4 and whom I love very much) off your hands at the moment. I feel I have at least one very serious illness going on and cannot cope, that it is help I need from them not the other way around! (I have done child-minding for them for 4 years and plan try to help again next year despite MS but the path cannot be one way - is that selfish?).