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Carpe Mundo

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I am not from the West, but from a Third World country. I come from a privileged background, so I am able to cope with OCD somewhat. This OCD is destroying my life. I just want to withdraw from society and stay in my room. My mind is under control of a loop that keeps repeating the worst thoughts in my mind over and over. I am under attack right now. It's like being surrounded by terrorists lurking in the shadows, who also accuse me of being a terrorist and do everything to degrade and demonize me. I feel notorious for no reason, and I fear for my life, because I feel that the enemy lurking in the shadows will attack me at any given moment. I know this to be false, but it's an irrational feeling that takes over me. I can reason, but I can't control the thoughts inundating my head and I can't control the response it elicits. This happens at every moment of every day. Please, I need someone to talk to.
 
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Hi @Carpe Mundo welcome to the forum and nice to have you with us :)

If you don't mind me asking but have you been diagnosed with OCD in general by a specialist or Doctor because everything else your explaining in my opinion is hallucinations and as anything happened for your mind to think terrorist wise?
 
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Carpe Mundo

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Yes, I have been diagnosed with OCD by a elderly and experienced licensed psychiatrist, but firstly with depression and psychosis in 2008. I have been told by an experienced doctor that I "show symptoms of psychosis" such as withdrawing from the world and accusing others of doing things to me that they would not do. I also compulsively listen to the same five or six songs on Youtube all day. I am taking fluoxetine (Prozac) to treat the depression and risperidone (an antipsychotic) to treat the effects of the OCD. I just need someone to talk to, and to tell me my thoughts are irrational and without basis in reality. Thanks for responding, it means a lot.
 
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@Carpe Mundo pleased to hear you've been diagnosed properly and some self diagnose.

I used yo have hallucinations very bad and doctors in then end said they couldn't treat as meds wasn't helping enough so down the line i've had to learn to control my thoughts but when they do happen it's like a good side and a bad side and my head flows to the bad side and i've done some stupid things in life through it..i'm classed as a psychopath, so i roughly know what road your travelling but we all suffer symptoms at different extremes.

Your thoughts are irrational the same as mine and getting close to someone who you can talk with who won't judge you but will listen helps a great deal i had counselling and i married a man who listens and when i get erratic out of control he totally supports me in my mind thinking and helping me to look at issues in a better way...this helps a great deal. :hug5:
 
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Carpe Mundo

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Northeast Africa
@Carpe Mundo pleased to hear you've been diagnosed properly and some self diagnose.

I used yo have hallucinations very bad and doctors in then end said they couldn't treat as meds wasn't helping enough so down the line i've had to learn to control my thoughts but when they do happen it's like a good side and a bad side and my head flows to the bad side and i've done some stupid things in life through it..i'm classed as a psychopath, so i roughly know what road your travelling but we all suffer symptoms at different extremes.

Your thoughts are irrational the same as mine and getting close to someone who you can talk with who won't judge you but will listen helps a great deal i had counselling and i married a man who listens and when i get erratic out of control he totally supports me in my mind thinking and helping me to look at issues in a better way...this helps a great deal. :hug5:
Yes, this makes sense. I am all alone in the world, without a soul to care for me. I am 31, and because of my illnesses, I am disabled and I am priviledged to live with my upper-middle-class parents. I suffer alone. I have no one to talk to or with whom to discuss my problems. I am unemployed, and every day is the same depressing routine. I go on afternoon walks, to interact with the world. I believe that I need CBT, and I will discuss that with my psychiatrist this week. Thanks.
 
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