- Feb 9, 2020
- Northeast Africa
I am not from the West, but from a Third World country. I come from a privileged background, so I am able to cope with OCD somewhat. This OCD is destroying my life. I just want to withdraw from society and stay in my room. My mind is under control of a loop that keeps repeating the worst thoughts in my mind over and over. I am under attack right now. It's like being surrounded by terrorists lurking in the shadows, who also accuse me of being a terrorist and do everything to degrade and demonize me. I feel notorious for no reason, and I fear for my life, because I feel that the enemy lurking in the shadows will attack me at any given moment. I know this to be false, but it's an irrational feeling that takes over me. I can reason, but I can't control the thoughts inundating my head and I can't control the response it elicits. This happens at every moment of every day. Please, I need someone to talk to.