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PinkLady
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I am 24 years old and deeply ashamed about my life.
I am single, only have 1 friend (The others ignored me and treated me badly so those friendships ended), look ridiculously young, have a weird voice, still live at home and am in a job which pays peanuts and which doesn't give me many hours. However it is the one and only place where I feel I have a purpose as I work with kids and working with them seems to be the only thing which I can do right.
I spend most evenings and weekends at home and get so bored I want to cry. I hate it when colleagues ask me what I am up to of a weekend as I am never up to anything.
I feel like my parents pity me and I am tired of always putting on a fake facade for the world to see. I am known as being happy and smiley as well as capable at work but outside of work I am a freak. It makes me scared to get to know colleagues better as who would want to have a friend like me or to be close to someone like me? I am betting my colleagues only like me as they think I am about 17/18 anyway and so they see me as the sweet little girl.
I have tried to get in touch with old friends but that didn't work and after we met they all ignored me. I have always tried getting on courses to improve my work situation but my boss isn't being helpful.
I am scared that this is all there is to life. I am so ashamed of being me and feel like everything is so hard.
I just wish I could be a better and more worthwhile person.
I am single, only have 1 friend (The others ignored me and treated me badly so those friendships ended), look ridiculously young, have a weird voice, still live at home and am in a job which pays peanuts and which doesn't give me many hours. However it is the one and only place where I feel I have a purpose as I work with kids and working with them seems to be the only thing which I can do right.
I spend most evenings and weekends at home and get so bored I want to cry. I hate it when colleagues ask me what I am up to of a weekend as I am never up to anything.
I feel like my parents pity me and I am tired of always putting on a fake facade for the world to see. I am known as being happy and smiley as well as capable at work but outside of work I am a freak. It makes me scared to get to know colleagues better as who would want to have a friend like me or to be close to someone like me? I am betting my colleagues only like me as they think I am about 17/18 anyway and so they see me as the sweet little girl.
I have tried to get in touch with old friends but that didn't work and after we met they all ignored me. I have always tried getting on courses to improve my work situation but my boss isn't being helpful.
I am scared that this is all there is to life. I am so ashamed of being me and feel like everything is so hard.
I just wish I could be a better and more worthwhile person.