- May 25, 2020
I have ordered a new sim card for my phone which means I will have a new phone number. I do not want my family to be able to contact me. Recently my mum is back in touch with me after a 6 year absence. At first I tried talking to her about how her behaviour has effected me but she refused to discuss it. She texts me once a week making small talk and I cannot cope with it. I then had to text one sister who was angry I had blocked her. I cannot have her in my life either although she only wants to exchange birthday cards. I cannot cope with how they have ruined my life and still to this day will not accept I have bpd or allow me to talk about how I feel. My mum lives 25 minutes away from me so I will never really be able to escape. I know I will hurt them but I cannot see any way out. Every contact makes me feel terrible. I wish I could move home too but that is not an option.