- Feb 11, 2021
I received a message from a "friend" at 4am yesterday (Wednesday) saying that something had been on their mind and can we chat it over on Friday. This was after I had told them that something they did upset me. What they are going to tell me isn't good. I agreed we could chat it over Friday night. Because I was distracted yesterday I didn't know if I had taken my antidepressant and then I was like I had better not take one just incase. This morning I am so, so upset about not knowing what that person needs to tell me. I used to be really bad at telling people how I truly felt about things and didn't do it. Now with this person I have started telling them how I feel. I tried to push the feeling down " no wait until Friday night". I just could not. I was distressed at work, crying and talking to myself out loud- no one is there so it is okay. I got that feeling and thoughts to SH. Then I thought no just send this person a message. So I said "I prefer it if someone is upset with me for them to just tell me there and then. Can you call me today please?" I felt better after I had written it and told them my needs. I know a lot of people cannot relate to this; the intensity of emotion over what seems like nothing to almost everybody.