- Apr 16, 2015
I have had an awkward life from the start; abusive parents to some extent, a lot of moving around, no friends to associate with and an overworking brain that needs constant feeding with knowledge. To deal with my life I seemed to have started to think about what my life would be like if things were different; at the start if I had gone to different schools, had different parents, lived in a different part of the world. After a while it got more and more unrealistic such as super powers, massive amounts of money, government abduction and all sorts. as the fantasies get more elaborate and as more time goes on I feel as if the worlds I have made up in my mind are true. I don't take money serious because one day soon I will have billions but in reality and getting more and more in debt. I stare for hours at objects waiting to be able to move them with my mind. I am afraid one day I won't come back to reality. These days when I do get a reality check I feel depressed sometimes even suicidal at the thought my life is actually awful and not the fantasy I have made for myself. I want to know if this is a common thing and if there is a way to bring myself back to the real world more permanently, and to stop being disappointed with my life as it is.