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I am a terrible person

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Awasteofskin

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I can't care, I can't listen, but I'll work my ass off for money or loyalty. No seriously 60 hours a week in food where everyone treats you like shit.

I stopped caring completely what others think now. I just want to be alone and have just enough money to survive.

This shouldn't the reality people should live. I would only wish it on the shittest people. Make no mistake I'm not the type of guy to not wish pain on people. I do but only if they deserve it cause I like justice but, this pain should saved for the worst of the worst.

I wish I was a good person but, I'm too rough no matter how I approach anything. It's why I'm alone and always will be. I take pride in my lone wolf status. That part is what I get frustrated about. It's very real stuff like money or politics. It's not that my mind can't be changed it's just hard to change it you'd have to in a very particular way for me to even understand where you're coming from cause I can't read that shit.

I wanna leave society completely but, haven't figured out without money. Once I'm out in nature I'm good.
 
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Hollingwood69

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I think you being on here show your a good person ? Or trying to be .i think most people would like to leave society , I know I would , but not practical for me . Even the roughest people can have a good heart Why do you think you too rough ?
 
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midnightphoenix

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You ARE a good person, it does not sound like you are harming anyone just for fun so i dont understand why you think your a bad person, you are not a bad person just a person who is struggling and needs to be shown love and care :grouphug:
 
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George10111

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The fact that you feel bad that you think you are a bad person shows you are not. You wouldn't want the pain we depressed SA sufferers to fall upon anyone but the worst, that also shows you're a good person. It seems as though the worst people have the good things happen to them, and truly awful things happen to great people like you and me.

I too have taken pride in my lone wolf life and the only time I feel truly lonely is when I'm with people. If you're feeling like that, the problem isn't that you don't love yourself. Its that people give off a vibe that they're better then you in reality they aren't. They're just insecure and need human validation constantly or they fall apart. In ways we're stronger because we call upon our own validation and that's enough.

I've never truly hated myself and I don't think that's possible for anyone, no matter how badly we talk about ourselves. Its because we want to beat our adversaries to the chase.

I understand wanting to leave society and I pretty much have, mentally by checking out and not caring that people think. Thats not always easy I admit, especially when you're around a lot of other people who are happily engaged in others around them. Remember your loyalty to yourself.
 
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kim0123

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I can't care, I can't listen, but I'll work my ass off for money or loyalty. No seriously 60 hours a week in food where everyone treats you like shit.

I stopped caring completely what others think now. I just want to be alone and have just enough money to survive.

This shouldn't the reality people should live. I would only wish it on the shittest people. Make no mistake I'm not the type of guy to not wish pain on people. I do but only if they deserve it cause I like justice but, this pain should saved for the worst of the worst.

I wish I was a good person but, I'm too rough no matter how I approach anything. It's why I'm alone and always will be. I take pride in my lone wolf status. That part is what I get frustrated about. It's very real stuff like money or politics. It's not that my mind can't be changed it's just hard to change it you'd have to in a very particular way for me to even understand where you're coming from cause I can't read that shit.

I wanna leave society completely but, haven't figured out without money. Once I'm out in nature I'm good.
I can relate, I feel most sane or fulfilled when alone or with my boyfriend, in nature. Where it's calm, there's a mutual respect. I feel I don't belong in society.
 
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Awasteofskin

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I can relate, I feel most sane or fulfilled when alone or with my boyfriend, in nature. Where it's calm, there's a mutual respect. I feel I don't belong in society.
Be greatful you have a boyfriend. I can't get that close to another being. I don't really want to anymore either.
 
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