- Mar 31, 2019
- South Carolina
I don’t want to have Schizophrenia, but now that I’m in my early 20s I’m starting to experience symptoms. Sometimes when I’m in my room, I can hear these faint noises of people talking like it’s from a TV, but when I open my door, I don’t hear any TVs. It happens sometimes. There was another unexplained incident that happened years ago (2014, I think, so I must’ve been 16) when I was laying on the couch at night and suddenly heard a loud female screaming in both of my ears to where it hurt my ear drums. But my grandmother was in the same room as me and didn’t hear it. I’m already badly anxious already, my anxiety and stress is terrible. But I can’t take this. One thing that was bothering me a couple days ago was when I looked up to see if there was any link between Schizophrenia and high IQ, but I saw the exact opposite. There’s a link between Schizophrenia and low IQ. Like, lower than the average population. I don’t know if SAD will affect my IQ since it’s environmental and not genetic (like every kind of Schizophrenia), but I’m very anxious to see what my IQ is. I don’t want to have a low IQ. That idea scares me to death. I want to have a beyond genius IQ. If I have a 70 IQ, I might as well kill myself.