I got in a relationship with a girl I deeply fancied in early 2018 and for the first weeks things where intense, but great. Suddenly, I started having random doubts about whether I actually liked her at all and wasn’t able to shake them; despite the fact I cry everytime she goes away for a couple of weeks (We are Uni students and live in different countries) I feel like my mind is active 24/7, so I can’t actually be happy in the relationship. I just zone out because I’m worrying. Over the summer, when I was away from the girlfriend for most of the 3 months, I developed serious doubts as to my sexuality which caused me to be sick and lose sleep.I also felt I may have become slightly attracted to another girl, not that I ever wished to be with her. I broke up with the girlfriend then only to get back with her because the thought of being with any other girl sickens me, I think she is the girl I want. However, whenever she goes away these thoughts that I don’t even like her come into my head and feel so real. When I’m with my girlfriend all my instinctive actions are to kiss her, be around her etc. However, I’ve started to worry I don’t find her physically attractive and I just feel horribly guilty Am I just in the wrong relationship, or is ROCD and HOCD destroying my relationship?