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Nina998

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Some of you might have read from other threads that I am battling with hypomania. I have crazy amount of energy and you know... All the typical symptoms. I have also cut out ALL the people in my life except for my husband and kids. I don't respond to messages. I don't even read them. This started when I got paranoid and started to question all these people's motives. Now I have started to recieve a lot of messages people asking if I am okay. Today my husband got a message from someone asking if I am well. All those messages cause me anxiety. Yesterday I had a panic attack when I recieved a message. I am afraid I will soon get rid of my phone. Why can't these people just leave me alone.

Other issue that I am worried about is loss of appetite. I exercise like crazy, long walks every day twice a day. But I only eat some dinner that's all. I feel like this hypomania is giving me so much energy I don't need food. I don't know how long my body can go like this but by far no problem.

I have a scheduled phone session with my cpn in less than two weeks. I don't know if I should contact her this week or wait till next week. I am enjoying this so much I don't want this to end except for the anxiety part. I can't talk about this hypomania with anyone so I am writing here.
 
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Hi Nina998,

Sorry everything seems to be so chaotic :(
Please dont feel anxious reading this message! I have similar feelings of paranoia towards my phone /people contacting me. Don't dwell on people's motives other than your own.. You can't control their actions but you can control how you react to them :) Even if you simply respond via text to whoever it may be - 'I'm ok, I just need time!' . People WiLL understand! Even if it seems like they wont.
With the eating and loss of appetite - It is hard! I'm battling trying to eat at the moment also.. Try and just force yourself to sit down , even if it just for 2 minutes with a petit, tiny meal!? I try and just have a banana for breakfast for example? . Just something to keep the body going especially when your burning more energy than usual. Otherwise you deplete your fat too fast and start burning important muscle . Thays when your body will start going against you!
Maybe try and contact someone sooner rather than later? If theres anything I've learnt is from dealing with my diagnosis is that people are always there for you no matter what for. Anxiety is horrible and I don't feel any of it anymore on my tablets luckily when It came with my low moods. But if you dont do something sooner it will. just get worse.!
Stay strong. :) st92
 
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Some of you might have read from other threads that I am battling with hypomania. I have crazy amount of energy and you know... All the typical symptoms. I have also cut out ALL the people in my life except for my husband and kids. I don't respond to messages. I don't even read them. This started when I got paranoid and started to question all these people's motives. Now I have started to recieve a lot of messages people asking if I am okay. Today my husband got a message from someone asking if I am well. All those messages cause me anxiety. Yesterday I had a panic attack when I recieved a message. I am afraid I will soon get rid of my phone. Why can't these people just leave me alone.

Other issue that I am worried about is loss of appetite. I exercise like crazy, long walks every day twice a day. But I only eat some dinner that's all. I feel like this hypomania is giving me so much energy I don't need food. I don't know how long my body can go like this but by far no problem.

I have a scheduled phone session with my cpn in less than two weeks. I don't know if I should contact her this week or wait till next week. I am enjoying this so much I don't want this to end except for the anxiety part. I can't talk about this hypomania with anyone so I am writing here.
I would definitely contact her sooner rather than later. You don’t want to let the mania get to the point where it can start to become destructive. And as your treatment team I’m sure she’d want to know. :hug:
 
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My mood is more anxious than elevated now. Amount of energy and activity is still the same though. I am anxious of all messages. I am avoiding my phone like it was going to explode if I touch it. Green light telling about new message is a nightmare. Did I tell I also left Facebook and IG so no-one could track me down? This forum is the only safe place. I assume I'm soon getting messages from my parents and siblings. I feel bad not even reading the messages but I just can't.
 
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Some of you might have read from other threads that I am battling with hypomania. I have crazy amount of energy and you know... All the typical symptoms. I have also cut out ALL the people in my life except for my husband and kids. I don't respond to messages. I don't even read them. This started when I got paranoid and started to question all these people's motives. Now I have started to recieve a lot of messages people asking if I am okay. Today my husband got a message from someone asking if I am well. All those messages cause me anxiety. Yesterday I had a panic attack when I recieved a message. I am afraid I will soon get rid of my phone. Why can't these people just leave me alone.

Other issue that I am worried about is loss of appetite. I exercise like crazy, long walks every day twice a day. But I only eat some dinner that's all. I feel like this hypomania is giving me so much energy I don't need food. I don't know how long my body can go like this but by far no problem.

I have a scheduled phone session with my cpn in less than two weeks. I don't know if I should contact her this week or wait till next week. I am enjoying this so much I don't want this to end except for the anxiety part. I can't talk about this hypomania with anyone so I am writing here.
Oh man...you sound just like me! Especially with quarantine, I’m exercising like crazy! Don’t worry, exercise is not only good for you...it’s also a great way to manage symptoms in a positive way. Definitely no question in my mind that you shouldn’t wait to contact your doctor...sometimes it takes time to get an appt and to put treatment into motion and that is more time that you are sick...don’t put it off! Try to keep in mind that the people contacting you are doing so out of concern. I think there is a setting on your phone (like the automatic message that will come up while you are driving) and you can set a message that lets friends know you are well but feeing the need to unplug. Try to be open with your doctor about how you are feeling even if you can’t with your friends... They can’t help you if they don’t really know what’s going on… I know it can be hard to take that “I’m OK“ mask off.
 
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My mood is more anxious than elevated now. Amount of energy and activity is still the same though. I am anxious of all messages. I am avoiding my phone like it was going to explode if I touch it. Green light telling about new message is a nightmare. Did I tell I also left Facebook and IG so no-one could track me down? This forum is the only safe place. I assume I'm soon getting messages from my parents and siblings. I feel bad not even reading the messages but I just can't.
Can you ask your hubs to field responses? Maybe go on airplane mode?
 
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First of all thank you for your replies.

I didn't take my Quetiapine dose last night (and tonight either) AND I didn't contact my cpn... Bad choises by hypomanic brain.

I don't recieve messages anymore which is good for my anxiety. I haven't really planned my come-back... Lot of people will want an explanation. I don't know how or when. My family seems not to be concerned about my disappearance. Well they never cared anyway.

I am running out of closets to clean and organize. There's still some work at backyard but it snowed today... Spring is cancelled. My jogs are longer and longer. It's amazing how long you can go without food when hypomanic. I don't feel hunger or fatigue. I just go on. Never stop. Can't stop.

Greetings from a hypomanic wreck.
 
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I finally contacted my cpn today. She consulted my psychiatrist who made some minor changes to my medication. Have to stop taking Voxra, anti-depressant. That I could guess by myself. We'll see if that's enough to stop this madness. Also need to get lithium level checked.

I don't know, I kinda needed some relief right now, but I guess it's gonna take a while before my mood balances. I feel horrible. This is not fun anymore.

So that's that. Hypomania is soon gone and depression is waiting to take over.
 
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I feel like I just started this thread. However, I woke up this morning manic. No doubt. How is it possible that this is happening again? How? And why? I have a feeling that this isn't just one of those days but a new episode. I still haven't recovered from the last one. I am not sure if this is better than depression or should I stay depressed. I hate these first days of hypomania when you can't really tell what's going on. Is this here to last?

Feeling creative today. I've written 30 pages and there is still lot of today left. Seems like a book coming along...
 
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I feel you. I am a few days in to an new (hypo)manic episode too. Hadn't realised how much but saw my parents and sister yesterday and...yeah.

My Pdoc and GP are due to call me today anyway. One part of me wants to avoid them as I'm still in the major enjoyment phase. But this resulted in a month in hospital in Jan/Feb so...
 
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This is fourth day so I guess it's here to stay. I am not helping situation by not taking my meds. I do it every time I am hypomanic. I didn't sleep last night but I am not tired. I suffer from other withdrawal symptoms though like cold sweat and shaking.

I am staying in a spa hotel with my kids at the moment so I am pretty busy with them. Those times when we are in a hotel room I write. I am in a process of writing a book. I've dreamed of writing a book since I was a child and this manic episode finally initiated the process. I started feeling extremely creative last week. It was a warning sign I didn't realise. I am very aware of my manic episodes which is good I guess. Though being aware doesn't stop me from doing what I do.

I have a video appointment with my cpn next week. I am planning to tell her about my new episode and two months of depression that preceded it. I can't imagine what my pdoc is going to do about this. I've tried like dozen different meds before Lithium and Quetiapine but no drug makes a difference. Maybe they'll finally get it.

By the way, me and my hubby have 8th wedding anniversary today. I got a nice text from him this morning. It's good to know I am loved even though sharing a life with me is hard and painful.
 
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