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Oregon
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My husband and I have been married for 17 years. The last 6 mos have been very stressful on our marriage. We have had financial issues, step children issues, medical issues. We have fought constantly for 6 mos. We have 6 children ages: 21 boy, 20 boy, 18 boy, 18 girl, 15 girl, 12 boy. The 21 and 18 year old girl does not live with us. The 18 year old girl is my sons daughter who has played havoc on our marriage. So 2 mos ago I told him that I thought we needed to separate as it wasn't healthy for the kids and us to fight constantly. He threatened suicide by driving himself and I to the beach and help a gun to his head. Well of course I stayed and didn't tell anyone like he asked me too. Well 5 days ago I told him again that to better our marriage we needed to separate so that we could both work on our individual problems. His response was, he got the gun and held it to his head again in our kitchen and was going to do it in front of me. My 20 year old got involved and took the gun away. I don't know what to do. I do love him but feel that things go good for a few days then were back to the same routine.
My problem is this if I do leave him and he does commit suicide then I am to blame and how do I live with myself?
My 18 year old said he would do it also? Do I take the risk of losing both family members?
I am very angry at my husband right now. I cannot even look at him. I don't understand how if you love someone how you would even put them in that situation? How could he even think about killing himself in our home in front of me?
My problem is this if I do leave him and he does commit suicide then I am to blame and how do I live with myself?
My 18 year old said he would do it also? Do I take the risk of losing both family members?
I am very angry at my husband right now. I cannot even look at him. I don't understand how if you love someone how you would even put them in that situation? How could he even think about killing himself in our home in front of me?