- Nov 8, 2021
I know this topic may look selfish, and to be honest I'm struggling writing it right now. I don't know how to explain this to be honest. To be straightforward, there was an incident where a roommate of mine tried to commit suicide at my fraternity house. There was an intervention where brothers of mine stepped in and prevented it lucklily, and afterwards he went to get some help. He's doing well, and again I feel selfish prefacing with that, but I felt I needed some backstory. For months, I have felt depressed. I don't feel the need to acknowledge why, but I have felt terrible, day after day. Last September especially my depression was probably rock-bottom, I was drinking 5-7 days of the week at the least. I think I'm doing better now but still I get jokes about how much of an alcoholic I am apparently, which probably isn't a lie. To be honest, I don't know why I wrote this, I was drunk when I first thought about this, and I still am now. I guess it just boils down to: is there a way to not feel guilty over depression after a roommate tried to commit? I'm sorry for the ramble.