- Mar 10, 2008
I know I'll probably get slammed for this post but hopefully someone out there can see past the situation and give some advise. I'm married and was having an online affair with another man. It didn't start out as an affair but it began with one email si months ago and just sort of escalated. We exchanged pictures and had talked about meeting in person but called things off before they reached that level. That was a week ago and I still can't stop thinking about him. I can't sleep because he's on my mind, I'm not doing well at work. I constantly check my email in case he sends a message. I feel depressed but I wasn't even in love with him. I knew what it was when we first started it and knew it would end but didn't know it would affect me like this. I miss the excitement, I miss feeling wanted. I love my husband and glad things stopped where they did so he wouldn't find out and get hurt but now I don't know what to do about me. I'm not pretty or even really nice looking and my husband was the only man who'd ever seen me as real women before now. I was flattered. I miss feeling...special. Anyone else ever been in this situation? What do you? I've had issues with depression before this too so I recognize the signs. I know what I did was stupid, I know I'm lucky to be with my husband, but I can't help seem to shake these feelings. Any thoughts/advice? Thanks.