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How to deal with maniacal behaviour/manic episodes

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Hey all,

Past two days I felt invincible, impervious. So euphoric, ecstacy-like only way better. I act out recklessly, say inappropriate things, feel like I am awesome. I never had to deal with it so intensely. I was staying in touch with lots of women, calling them, send pictures I later regret. Watching porn for hours while being on the phone. But at the moment it's all good. I tend to seek out contact with other people with BPD because I discovered that expressing myself to an understanding person really takes the pressure off the whole experience and intensity of emotions. And luckily in most cases it turns into a light, low-pressure sort of connection. We have a laugh about it all and the craziness in us.

So I am grateful I found this place so I don't feel alone in it.

But what if you are all alone and feel maniacally, what are tips or advice you would give to stay out of trouble?

I came up with: Simply writing the things I want to do on a piece of paper. So I give it at least some sort of thought. Also I am conflict with myself often about the whole rationalization of everything. We are emotional beings and act mostly on feeling and intuition (Site I based this on). So why bother trying to analyse every situation? Even though I found writing out out the impulses and actions helped me realise it was part of the episode and not what I really want. But maybe that too is controlled by my subconciousness 😂 . anyway any criticism, feedback or tips?
 
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Are you sure you are not suffering Bi Polar rather than BPD? If
Hey all,

Past two days I felt invincible, impervious. So euphoric, ecstacy-like only way better. I act out recklessly, say inappropriate things, feel like I am awesome. I never had to deal with it so intensely. I was staying in touch with lots of women, calling them, send pictures I later regret. Watching porn for hours while being on the phone. But at the moment it's all good. I tend to seek out contact with other people with BPD because I discovered that expressing myself to an understanding person really takes the pressure off the whole experience and intensity of emotions. And luckily in most cases it turns into a light, low-pressure sort of connection. We have a laugh about it all and the craziness in us.

So I am grateful I found this place so I don't feel alone in it.

But what if you are all alone and feel maniacally, what are tips or advice you would give to stay out of trouble?

I came up with: Simply writing the things I want to do on a piece of paper. So I give it at least some sort of thought. Also I am conflict with myself often about the whole rationalization of everything. We are emotional beings and act mostly on feeling and intuition (Site I based this on). So why bother trying to analyse every situation? Even though I found writing out out the impulses and actions helped me realise it was part of the episode and not what I really want. But maybe that too is controlled by my subconciousness 😂 . anyway any criticism, feedback or tips?
Are you sure it’s not Bi Polar you suffer from? If you know it’s BPD you really need some DBT (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) from a Psychologist. See you doctor ASAP. In the meantime I’ll recommend two books, both come in audio format as well. The Mindful way through depression by Kabat Zinn and Mindfulness for Borderline Personality Disorder
 
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Are you sure you are not suffering Bi Polar rather than BPD? If


Are you sure it’s not Bi Polar you suffer from? If you know it’s BPD you really need some DBT (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) from a Psychologist. See you doctor ASAP. In the meantime I’ll recommend two books, both come in audio format as well. The Mindful way through depression by Kabat Zinn and Mindfulness for Borderline Personality Disorder by Blaise Aguirre and Gillian Galen
 
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@Lunus

I have not been diagnosed. I have a doctor's appointment next Friday to do examination and tests. So it could be bi-polar… I don't know. All I know is that I recognise most behaviour as Borderline and other borderliners assume that I am too. Thanks for replying. And indeed DBT seems like a therapy that I would benefit from.
 
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@Lunus

I have not been diagnosed. I have a doctor's appointment next Friday to do examination and tests. So it could be bi-polar… I don't know. All I know is that I recognise most behaviour as Borderline and other borderliners assume that I am too. Thanks for replying. And indeed DBT seems like a therapy that I would benefit from.
There are many similarities that they both share. Obviously I’m no expert but the symptoms you describe are the same as a friend I have that’s Bi Polar. Good luck.
 
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There are many similarities that they both share. Obviously I’m no expert but the symptoms you describe are the same as a friend I have that’s Bi Polar. Good luck.
Oh and I don’t think a doctor will diagnose you, most probably you’ll be referred to a Psycologist to do that.
 
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Sorry for the off topic post but just wanted to say good to see you @Lunus, missed seeing you around.
 
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I'm going to say what someone once said to me, "you think a lot! I thought I was bad!" lol I'm just teasing with you.

In all seriousness, while I can't say I've exactly had your same experience, I have had these sortof "meniacal" moments (laughing meniacally about "evil" things I've done or have seen others do). When I'm "balanced", if you will, (or depressed) I might not take much pleasure in those things. How to deal with them though? I'm not sure. I'm sure I probably need to talk to a therapist and maybe you do too, but I get a lot out of these forums too... I dunno. Just my two cents! I've been observed for both bipolar2 and borderline personality disorder in the past, but testing showed that I didn't meet all the criteria for either. So, perhaps I just have these tendencies. Or perhaps something will show up in the future. Like I said, I've had these "moments", but they usually don't last for more than a couple days to a week and they don't get extreme extreme, I guess. My husband doesn't always like my behavior, but that could just be him. I dunno. hehe (meniacal laughing???)
 
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As I described these symptoms as above I would say Bi Polar as well, but this is actually a very strange experience for me. Normally I feel bad about myself and think that I will never make it.

As I check this list I feel more closely to the borderline side. Obviously there is a big overlap indeed. Maybe both or none? I will meet a psychologist this friday, not a doctor. But need to be evaluated by a psychiatrist. I definitely am in need of help. I feel this is no way of living.

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this is a good chart! but i personally have struggled with trying to define some of these things clearly or determine whether or not i have them/do them. It's possible you could have both (or none). Yeah, good luck with your appointment!
 
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Thank you, I just got back from a date, had sex and the connection was gone, so just a mean to a goal. So now I am home, feeling down, exhausted/sleep deprived to the point of seeing smoke around me (hallucination) so I am headed to bed and nice meeting you! I will tell how it went friday
 
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Not sure how to "react" to that. lol It's a combo of "i understand", "I'm sorry", "wishing you best sleep", and "like" for nice meeting you/keeping me updated. lol
Goodnight!
 
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Hahah I realise it was a little weird message a perculiar to share so suddenly. I feel an increased need to express myself. But I appreciate that, goodnight!
 
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Sorry for the off topic post but just wanted to say good to see you @Lunus, missed seeing you around.
Thank you so much. It’s good to be back. I’ve been focusing on getting back with my wife, which I’m pleased to say I have and also attending the funeral of my sister so it’s been a tough time. Anyway, I’m back and moving forward.
 
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