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Missfit
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- Joined
- Sep 9, 2008
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Well, i'm new here so sorry to get into it when on a downer. I've had Bipolar & BPD for 15, nearly 16yrs & *maybe* all my life, nobody's sure. How do you all cope? Day to day I struggle to get from my bed to the pc which is maybe 1m away, can't go out or cook, get dressed or have a bath. I don't have friends or family that can help offline, and have a physical illness that leaves me in pain most days. I just dunno how much longer I can take it.
I've been told when I see my Consultant on Monday he'll probably increase one of my meds, but i'm hardly taking them, crazy I know I need to, but i've got no will to live, I know they help & I bring it on myself by not taking them, but all I seem to be able to do is sleep. It's almost like i've given up.
I wish I could just escape & get away from it all or talk to someone, to just hear another voice. I'm not coping with thinking i'm almost 30 & i'll never have kids or a life. Sorry to be so depressing, just had to get that out.
I've been told when I see my Consultant on Monday he'll probably increase one of my meds, but i'm hardly taking them, crazy I know I need to, but i've got no will to live, I know they help & I bring it on myself by not taking them, but all I seem to be able to do is sleep. It's almost like i've given up.
I wish I could just escape & get away from it all or talk to someone, to just hear another voice. I'm not coping with thinking i'm almost 30 & i'll never have kids or a life. Sorry to be so depressing, just had to get that out.