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ninjafish007

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i've had problems for most of my adult life, but the fact that i have pushed away someone that i am very much in love with and connected to had exacerbated things greatly for me.

Suicidal thoughts have been with me for a very long time, held in check by a phobia of death. But now realising that i am completely alone in the world (i hate being around people because they scare the life out of me and i'm hate being judged,) my thoughts towards ending it taken a complete hold on me and i'm thinking about it on a every 10-20 minute basis. I'm not sleeping. there literally is no point, none. i've lurked on here a lot and i read other people's screams and i know i'm nothing new or different. and all the replies these posts have received, i just shrug at.

I am completely alone now, not a single friend, i do not to relate or am close to my family. this is all a delaying action until my eventual demise and i now would very much like to skip the waiting.

I just don't know how people can cope with this. i'm not.

And there are no answers that will help , i'm just attempting to vent to release some pressure!

And when you are scared of death then how are you supposed to gather the courage...

It's going to be another long night. Sorry for incoherent ramblings
 
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IWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH

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I'm so sorry your suicidal. I am too. It hurts bad. I hope you pull through. Please don't kill yourself. :hug:
 
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ClubinMonkey

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I can relate to you a lot man, I have suicidal thoughts daily - and yet the idea of death completely terrifies me.

Also completely new here (like not even an hour) so I'm also just looking for answers...

If you need to talk I'm here man - sometimes a complete randomer is better than somebody you know... or that's how I feel anyway.

Keep strong dude.
 
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Hypno

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See a doctor. You have nothing to lose. You know you aren't psychic and neither am I, neither of us know if it will help or not. Worst case scenario it doesn't work and you're back where you started. These probably aren't problems that you can cure (at this stage of medical technology), but the symptoms can be managed. You might be happy one day. You might never be happy, but cope. You might not be able to cope. I understand what you are feeling. I have been there many times.

You don't know me, but I relate to you. I can't say I'm your friend, we've never spoken, but I can say that I feel a kinship with you that is very real. A kinship that can only be shared by people who have both seen the same horrors, like war veterans from WW2 or something. Know at least that you are not alone. A lot of people are going through this. Some of them get better... others don't. Only time will tell. Do not confuse yourself that you have 0% chance of recovery. It is not true. Please try. Not for me, or anyone else, but for yourself. Circumstances can change. Life can change. We are just animal brains all with the same physiology and all your thoughts are caused by physiology. This means the problem DOES have a solution out there in the medical ether. Regards, Joe.
 
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JohnDoe-mk42

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I had repetitive suicidal thoughts not long ago and nearly went through with it. However I had what I'd call a slight epiphany, death is infinite. On the other hand life is most certainly finite, so what's the point of rushing into it as no matter what I'll eventually get there and I might even see something worthwhile along the way. This way of thinking allowed me to stop the suicidal thoughts from being so prevalent and put the knife down (obviously it hasn't fixed everything, but it helped) and I'm no longer scared of death, instead I embrace the fact that it'll take me at an unknown time in the future. Maybe some food for thought? Maybe completely useless? I dunno make of it what you will
 
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