how panic overwhelmed me everyday

[sad_heart20]

i get panic when confronted by family member every night
out of defensive mode
when family member "rises" in emotion
i blame and claim member is in an emotional state
member denies and accuses that I AM THE ONE creating Chaos
i immediately go to panic mode
i leash back

panic is part of ptsd
when i saw trauma. i panicked i ran down the hall and vomited all over and crashed my head on floor passing out

i panic when i have to stand in bus train when a homeless person screams or yell or a fellow commuter gets into fight and cops arrest that person and get that person off the train

i panic and clam up like shell when boss confront me via email

i panic when no one answers me

panic is real.

 

[calypso]

We are here to listen if it helps. You sound as though you are struggling a great deal right now.

 

[sad_heart20]

i am.
this family member ain't the first
i was a "nightmare" to my adopted parents BEFORE i met this family member