- Jan 26, 2020
- Murrieta, CA
Tired of all this pain. In the past decade or so I have lost all my pets, my friend, my mom , dad, I moved out of the city I loved so much, I can't go to church because of covid facism. I just want the pain to end. In a way the pains of my life drain me in my daily life. What's going on? Am I emotionally burnt out? I just want to be dead and be in some happy afterlife. I spend most of my days angry and cynical at how cruel life has been to me. We all know life is cruel but their are times where I can't take at how cruel life can be. At times I think too. What is the point. We spend most of our time working our butt off for money which pays for all this stuff and only for us to sleep in a house only for us to go back to work next mourning. Maybe I might have to someday. Just wishing God would take me soon I just can't take it at times even me having no life sucks even more, no one to hang out with worst of all. Just waiting for it to end. I feel like life is torture sometimes.