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How mild can hypomania be?

Lostinthestatic

Lostinthestatic

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TLDR: I believe I may have experienced hypomania but find it difficult to tell it apart from just feeling happy, or having BPD symptoms. How mild can hypomania be? What is it like to have both BPD and bipolar II?

My therapist is considering bipolar disorder as well as borderline personality disorder for my diagnosis.

I kind of disregarded the possibility of bipolar, as I have an intense fear of abandonment, chronic emptiness and many other symptoms of BPD that I believe affect me more than anything else. My moods can also change from moment to moment, and normally it is trigger specific.

However, I do notice a distinct up and down that seems cyclical as well. Overflowing feelings of confidence, feeling irresistible and flirty/being hypersexual, being more sociable... it doesn’t last for long, and I basically always eventually fall into a deep depression. However, during these “episodes” there are BPD traits that remain.

I don’t know what is normal and what is not. I don’t know what is cause for concern and what is not.

I find myself anticipating something akin to a hypomanic episode, or let’s call it a “high” since I don’t know if it’s hypomania or not. I find myself feeling like it will happen again, even though I am currently in a very deep depression.

Does anyone here suffer from both?
 
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dewey

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I definitely know what you mean about getting into those kinds of states and questioning whether it's bipolar. I'm another one who has definitely shown symptoms of bipolar but never had an actual diagnosis, and I do question it from time to time, but mainly just ignore the idea.
And I have had a borderline diagnosis in the past, just for context.
Ultimately if you know you have those typical borderline symptoms, it's a good thing as you can address them in various ways and work to overcoming them. If you don't find that you are manic or hypomanic in such a way that's disturbing your day to day, I wouldn't worry about it. Only, you could bring those issues about your self perception as being more confident then suddenly dipping to the table in therapy etc.
That's my ten cents. Hope you get some more clarity
 
Lostinthestatic

Lostinthestatic

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I definitely know what you mean about getting into those kinds of states and questioning whether it's bipolar. I'm another one who has definitely shown symptoms of bipolar but never had an actual diagnosis, and I do question it from time to time, but mainly just ignore the idea.
And I have had a borderline diagnosis in the past, just for context.
Ultimately if you know you have those typical borderline symptoms, it's a good thing as you can address them in various ways and work to overcoming them. If you don't find that you are manic or hypomanic in such a way that's disturbing your day to day, I wouldn't worry about it. Only, you could bring those issues about your self perception as being more confident then suddenly dipping to the table in therapy etc.
That's my ten cents. Hope you get some more clarity
Thank you! You’re right, if it’s not disturbing my day to day there’s no point in worrying much, but I will definitely continue talking to my therapist about it. And, if it happens again maybe things will make more sense because I’m in therapy.

I think my main concern is always whether or not I’m describing my symptoms clearly; I want to be properly treated as soon as possible, and I’ve heard of so many negative experiences surrounding misdiagnosis.

Just another thing to needlessly add onto my anxiety though :colours:
 
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