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How many peeps diagnosed with BPD are prescribed anti-psychotic medication?

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cadence

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Would anyone recommend trying anti-psychotic drugs where nothing else has seemed to work? I take fluoxetine and have tried mirtazapine, zopiclone and citalopram in various mixtures but I dont think the antidepressants do anything. Are the medications prescribed to someone with BPD supposed to level out moods? Because I am still regularly hysterical and increasingly suicidal, and dont feel my GP has sufficient expertise to comprehend it.

I am considering steering my GP towards searching for new medication...are anti-psychotics something I should consider? Are they prescribed easily?
what u said reminds me a lot of me, but the meds escitalapram (anti d), carbamazipine (mood stabiliser) and quietiapine (anti psych) have helped calm me down, in lots of stress yes i still get suidical etc, but can deal with "little" things better than i could. i am not saying everyone should be on meds, each to their own, some work better for some than others, this is just my experience, and before i started taking them i was at risk to myself and kids, as i couldnt comprehend what was dangerous etc, so last resort for me
 
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runslikeariver

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Hi All-I just wanted to talk about meds in general and hope this sticks to the original subject. I wasn't dianosed until I was 40 and life was hell on earth. I used street drugs and alcohol to self medicate and tried seven attempts. They were always serious attempts and I always got 'rescued', very much against my will. I was diagnosed with BPD at first, then DID, PTSD, anxiety and then borderline personality. They started me on the medication roulette wheel and tried so many drugs. Some worked and some almost destoyed me. The last ten years I have been on pretty much the same regimen and it has helped. I still suffer from the same things we all do; racing thoughts, anxiety, inability to fit in or communicate effectively with people. I think about death every day. Sometimes it seems like a good idea but most of the time it is enough to know that I can end the pain if I choose. The meds help me erect the boundaries that allow me to live and pursue the things I love. I have been a writer and an artist all of my life and it often helps to pull me back from the edge. I still suffer from paranoia and subsequently, withdrawal from life. I have a very difficult time making friends or hanging onto them if I do. My animals also give me a reason to live because who would love them as much as I do? The voices and hallucinations are mostly gone now but when I am out of my house I am always super vigilent. I also suffer from sensory overload and cannot drive because of it. I have not been able to work since 1995. So sometimes the lonliness and despair seem overwhelming. So the drugs have kept me alive and kept me out of prison and a schedual and exercise help a lot too, when I can do them. I have also taken DBT and can control that inner voice(s) most of the time. Some days taking a shower or housework or going out is impossible. I finished a novel I will be submitting next week and I am terrified that another rejection will do irreperable harm. It's been a year since I've had a pyscotic break and I hope the knowledge and wisdom I have accrued will keep me relatively sane now.
Meds are not the answer for everyone, as I have learned from reading on this forum, but they work for me to the degree that I am still alive and still, somehow, entertain the notion that hope is the ultimate drug. Some days I get to have that and that's also what keeps me hanging on.
As for normal? I don't know what that is. I no longer rail against the demons that these mental health issues support. I only know what is normal for me. If I wasn't this way, maybe I wouldn't be able to write or make art. Maybe I wouldn't be able to love so fiercely or be so brave. So fuck normal. I am who I am and I have finally learned acceptance and to work with the tools that I have. Sorry this is so long but I feel safe telling the truth here and I hope someone will get something out of this.
You are all so brave that it stuns me. Just try to keep on keeping on. It is all that we can do. Fondly, River
 
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SMiRC

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I was on quetiapine 9 months it didn't make me any better although it did make me sleep like a baby which was pure bliss but it also made me almost 20 kg heavier, i went from 55 kg to 73 kg in 6 months :( SSRI's don't suite me (i get way too high AND have panic attacks at the same time, not nice), venlaflaxin was a catastrophy, now i'm on diazepam only, some alprazolam (xanor) when really bad, but i try to avoid it.
 
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SMiRC

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Have you got bipolar hun? x
well that's my working dg but it's still not official and most of my symptoms suggest a variety of personality disorders. i hope and pray this will be sorted out soon...
 
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*sigh* me and meds have a long horrid history, and they are something that keeps coming up in recent topic with my CPN and my psych doc.
I was, a whiiiile ago, told I 'just had depression'. I tried about 4 different AD's, the first of which was Fluoxatine and within a fortnight of taking them, got a new prescription and took the whole lot. This landed me on a psych ward where I was a 'volunteer' patient... (I tried to leave on numerous occasions and was told I could not leave and if I kept trying they would section me!).
Whilst there I tried 3 ADs. First gave me nightmares so bad I would scream in the middle of the night. Second made me go off of food completely. I barely eat for a fortnight, and the third... I saved up under my bed and took the lot again! eep.

Anyway. I was eventually discharged, only to end up being sectioned in a different hospital. I was dx with BPD and tried some more ADs. Not sure how many. quite a few... then I got out.... Sectioned again. This time I refused meds and so they forced them down me. Was given Quetiapine (or however you spell it). This made me go out of it for a while... sleeping a lot and stuff. so they tried another couple of APs.

Nothing helped.

When I started cooperating (and they changed docs) a mood stabilizer was mentioned. I got out and started Depekote. It was a god sent. My impulsivity was curbed (slightly) and my moods were not quite to severe. After a few months of being on the stuff I finally came out and told them that my OH and I had been trying for a baby for quite a while (except when I wasnt in hospital of course). They imidiately stopped the meds. Aparently Depekote gives mothers an increased chance that their child will have certain 'defects' including spina bifida.

So that was it.

I have been struggling with moods again. I am getting better at some stuff but my moods and impulsivity is at an all time high intesity (too much to handle). I did some research into other mood stabilizers and at the last docs meeting I put it to my doc that I would like to try something again.
He told me that Depekote was all he was willing to consider and that he didnt even want that.
I asked what else he could offer.... anyway there was a huge argument and subsequently I have changed pdocs.
(Bare with me, nearly done.)
My CPN asked me the other day if I still wanted meds.
I DONT WANT MEDS
But I just need something to help me handle my days you know. just get me through hour by hour without feeling life is so much effort alllll the time. So what do I do, do I fight for meds even though I dont really want them, or do I just go on suffering because they cant come up with an alternative?
 
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